Bro I really think this is all in your head and has more to do with you struggling to accept that girls can fukk you for a number of reasons. This ranges from them finding you irresistible, to them being hoes, to using sex as an escape, fukking you out of biological obligation/scared to lose you, fukking you to control you sexualy, fukking you coz they are is some type of rebellious phase/revenge sex etc etc
You seem to want to fukk women who are really into you and are sexually/physically and emotionally in the moment. That's why you have a history of enjoying the best sex with women you're dating.
But that is not a realistic expectation. Some women, especially working class types have prioritised their careers and we're sexually naive/disconnected throughout their late teens and early to mid 20s. They were never with a man long term and simply don't know wtf they're doing sexually. E.g. the girl who ran to go wash the cum off her, that literally sounds like something a girl would do in High School, cum still makes her go "eeuw".
But you really need to stop trying to have or expect tantric sex with these types. I would say that 80% of the 100 odd girls I've fukked were average to mediocre in terms of performance. But it didn't affect me one bit
Yeah and I appreciate you reading it. I'm starting to realize I need to date with lowering my expectations lol. I feel like really good sexually but who knows lol.
I also remember I briefly had a FWB with a 2nd Lieutenant in the Army that was a nurse. SUPER young. Actually forgettable sex but sneaking on/off base to fukk her a few times was fun. We knew it was just sex and didn't look for anything else.
I think I'm done with women in the medical field for a while




. I got plenty to say about your last post im holla at you thoe.
. Switch your phone off and don't engage with her no matter what during the trip. 
