Damn.... Not gonna lie the story made me laugh hard. Sorry man, it's just the way you wrote it.
It's sad and funny at the same time. My homie is a homebody he doesn't really do anything so when I saw him first thing I said was "Did you get in a fight?" And was laughing because physical confrontation ain't his thing then he told me the story. I felt like shyt but it's all love. He's fukked up about it, though, like I could see something in his eyes that's off about him.
We've been talking and like me he's into guns has a lot of guns and shyt, he even did 4 years in the army. Long story short he's never ever gone hunting. And we've talked about him going hunting with me for like half a decade but it's never popped off. But the one thing I preach is every gun owner should go hunting at least once.
There's a vast difference between killing an animal and a human, but killing an animal gives you and indication of whether you could potentially shoot or kill a human. There's something about seeing it alive, breathing, moving then you taking the shot, recovering the body, maybe seeing it twitch or breathe it's last breath, looking into the eyes, maybe hearing it make whatever noise the animal makes....for some it's heartbreaking if that's the correct term, I have a boy that was big 2a, over 3g's worth of guns and accessories, he went hunting one time and was like "nope"
. "I'd rather fight with my hands, or run....not shooting somebody, don't care what the scenario is."
I don't think there's anything that makes killing fun or easy, if you have sanity and aren't a psychopath. But you don't want the first thing you shoot to be a human being, hearing them scream and cry "help!!!!" "Mama!!!" Or whatever, breathing, gasping all things we as humans can understand/interpret from one human to another.
That shyt can really really fukk with you, even if it's justified. Unfortunately my boy had to learn the hard way.