One of the reasons why i laid off of weed and any other drugs is because truth be told, no amount of weed i vaped or shrooms i took was able to take away the pain that i felt inside or experienced. Its still there. Life is scary and hard but you know what, lets talk about it instead of numbing it. I admire all the people who can deal with life without escapism. Whats bothering you inside? No direction in life? You dont have friends to talk to? Not able to get a date or no partner? Lonely? No job or stressed out with life? The state of the world making you feel sad?
At some point, you have to face whats bothering you or eating you up inside. Depression is a REAL thing though. Dont let it eat you alive. Im dealing with loneliness and have ALWAYS dealt with loneliness since forever. Never was popular. Have to deal with self loathing and etc. Its okay to be hurt. As men, we always acting like we dont have hurt or issues and that shyt wipes us out. I stopped writing in my journal for some years because it was hurtful to even write about it.
At some point, you gotta channel that superhero inside you and save yourself. fukk suicide. We are here for a reason. Hang in there and fight. Theres plenty of people dealing with the same shyt and they dont have the option to get high.