So I just realized after a while, and then watching the comments, that music is changing. This is not what made me fall in love with music. So if I’m watching all the pieces that made me fall in love with it not be relevant anymore…
You can go on WorldStar or something and your video that you spent hours at, the whole day shooting, and it’s next to two monkeys fukking. It’s like, where do I go to find the straight hip-hop? If that’s the platform then I don’t know if I’m into that.
I had to deal with all of this shyt in the media. I lost my grandmother, I lost my father, I lost my best friend. I grew up in the shyt. My whole 20s was sacrificed to my friend’s family and hip-hop. I don’t have no girlfriend, I don’t have no kids. I was completely locked in on it so much that it made me mad at the music. It made me mad that I put so much into this shyt, that I missed so much. I wasn’t there when my best friend got killed, I wasn’t there when my father was found. It makes you kind of resent the same shyt that you love. So my fans are going, “Where you at?” [But] I hated it. I love to make music but I hate what it did to me and what it did to my friends. So I fell back from it.