Catching shyt that there's no cure for is one of my greatest fears in life. I know this chick's son that was diagnosed MS a year ago. He was laid up in the hospital for a few weeks. Hope you don't get to that point brehYou on meds?
My boy got diagnosed with ALS last year. He started to lose strength in his legs. I watched this nikka go from being super active to the point where it takes him 3 hours just to shower and get dressed in the mornings. This nikka still inststs on living by himself
Honestly, the way I deal with the pain of losing someone close is to just not care about anyone in my life but myself. Not family, not friends. I've been hurt, painfully so, and it just isn't worth building relationships with anyone because it could end at anytime and has no real meaning or even purpose when all is said and done. Caring about people just isn't worth the toll of losing them.
I still have friends and don't act hostile towards anyone, but I emotionally disconnect myself from everyone. Been doing it for 15 years since my last dog passed. It's not worth it.
Went to a doctor's appointment today with a family member. She has cancer and they suggested palliative chemotherapy which she started last week, which was also her birthday.. she just turned 20. They spent ~10 mins covering the bases about what she should/shouldn't eat, prescriptions etc. Nearing the end of the convo he brought up life expectancy and told her the median life expectancy is ~6 months, some patients may live for up to 3-5 years, some may last 2-3 weeks/months. She kept asking him if he's ever had a patient that had a remission, to which he kept replying "anything is possible" and he can't really give her a number. It kinda fukked me up, because she asked him a few times; searching for that little glimmer of hope, but every time he answered her eyes filled up with tears, which she was trying really hard to fight.
On our way out we met this dude at the entrance(he was with us in the waiting room), and the convo kinda went like this:
Him: Hey, what were you in there fordo you have can...
Her: ...Yeah, in my head and neck
Him: Yeah they telling me that I have cancer in my nasal region, which i initially thought was just a sinus infection
Me: Damn breh
Him: Yeah.. I ain't trying to hear that breh, they say I'm gonna need chemo
Her: Yeah I just started last week, you'll be fine
Him: You sure, did they get to you on time?
Her: Yeah
Him:
He then shook my hand and told me to give her a hug for him. What struck me was how his total demeanor changed by her giving him that little bit of hope that she was was not fortunate enough to receive just a few minutes ago
I don't even know why I made this thread, I guess I just needed to vent. Life is short though brehs. If you have family members with bridges you burned for petty shyt, just let it go. Not saying it's gonna be easy, but at the end of the day, realizing that you're gonna lose some close to you, or have already lost them is even harder to digest.
She had a tooth ache back in late 2011, she didn't really think anything of it. Then it got really bad, so she went to her dentist. When she told him that she felt numbness in her jaw, he had her do a scan. Turns out she had a tumor that was already eating away at her mandible. She had to have her whole jaw removed. Had the surgery in summer 2012 and everything looked fine. Fast forward to may of last year where she was supposed to have her second surgery to reconstruct her jaw, but when they went back in they saw that the tumor had began to grow again. They had to remove more bone and soft tissue and sent her to do radiation. From that point shyt just went downhill really fast. Tumors started to latch on to her nerves and the base of her skull on their way to her brain. Nodes popped up in her lungs after the last scan. Seems like every time she went to a doctors appointment the news got worseNow she's home drugged and steroid up to help ease the nerve pain.
The bad ass lone wolf approach. Edgy.
On topic, sorry to hear that OP. The best you all can do for her is be there to see her through it all. Her only being 20 really drives home the point that life is really unfair. You have to cherish each day.
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as a 20 year old myself, news like this always hits me hard. There's so much in life we haven't experienced
Sometimes it's like that. I have family members that crossed me and I haven't spoken to in years and even when I make the effort to bury it, I'm met with ignorance/arrogance
but at least I know I did my part. I had an aunt who hadn't spoken to her father(my grandfather) in years, he ended up dying from an asthma attack on his birthday back in '07, and she still couldnt bring herself to call him and wish him happy biryhday. She took that shyt the hardest out of everyone else. Watching a loved one go into the ground man
She just left us brehs
Was in the ICU for 9 days on life support, her body couldn't fight anymore
I'm a fuking mess right now
