Breh the struggle was hard for some out here prior to this generation
We weren’t all playa, playa
Many men(and it’s more prevalent now)have low self esteem
Especially if you came from a single mother household
So trying to talk to chicks in the 90s and I say about 02 for me was
Didn’t really have designer threads until senior year
Didn’t have a car until that summer
Was into awkward shyt that most black girls of that time weren’t into(but I love coli revisionist history
)
So you had to mess with fat chicks or chicks on your level if you wanted to get a piece of ass
Or you was at the massage parlors because chicks weren’t choosy on you if you were ugly duck gang
Funny thing is most fat chicks are what men are looking for
I’m not talking the sloppy chicks(and people should know what I mean)
I’m talking the well put together, attitude straight, actually shared hobbies, round the way type chicks
If/when they lose weight types
After discarding the bullshyt your mother taught you and actually getting baptized in dirty water with more fit chicks
That’s the only way some men eat out here
So you really can’t knock a nikka for trying to survive out here and not go dry dikk their whole lives
It’s all about perspective
It came to you easy(maybe fairly easy)
But I’m a living witness that I didn’t hit my stride until 22(that was after my first heartbreak)
That’s when I stopped caring and was just hitting Steph Curry Jumpers
I didn’t care what the bytch looked like
I’m fukking on something I be damned
Discretion didn’t hit me until my ex wife
Then after moving back to Houston and the girls I thought didn’t like me in HS/First year of college saw my attitude shift
That’s when the “I always liked you” juelzing came about
To end this tangent
What doesn’t work for you
It’s pure survival for the next unless the nikka becomes a hermit/monk(and I had that phase too)
We’re not all confidence straight out the gate
You were fortunate and blessed
Just understand male journeys are different
