Jesus has really been speaking to me lately. He wants me to go to church tomorrow.

[valet]

For the believers on here, keep him in prayer. God can.

 

[Sad Bunny]

You will never be who you used to be. You will never be able to go back in time. Going to the church is not going to change that. All you're going to do like so many others is lean onto religion to make you feel better about yourself. What was it about the past that made you happy versus now? Dig into that you'll find your answers.

I actually trusted humans. I wasn’t so pessimistic. My health was better. I actually enjoyed my hobbies. I actually responded to texts and answered calls. I was just normal back in October and then that winter depression hit me and it’s been downhill since.

Eh. Exhausting all options is better than actually shooting myself

But I still know my life will most likely end via suicide so

 

[SunZoo]

Exactly.

I’m not saying it’ll solve all problems but I think it’s one of many things that will help me become a better person. I lost my way over these past few years and hate who I’ve become. I wasn’t always like this but some traumatic life events made me become someone I am not

Hard to dwell on your troubles when you are serving others, that is the key.

Depression is you starving for relief from unexpressed sadness and anger. You'd be surprised how giving others peace of mind and room to express comes right back to you.

 

[Diunx]

You guys talking about how hot Benito is?

 

[⠀X ⠀]

I went to church today for the first time in forever.

Hope you found what you were looking for

 

[cyndaquil]

I actually trusted humans. I wasn’t so pessimistic. My health was better. I actually enjoyed my hobbies. I actually responded to texts and answered calls. I was just normal back in October and then that winter depression hit me and it’s been downhill since.

Eh. Exhausting all options is better than actually shooting myself

But I still know my life will most likely end via suicide so

Breh whatever happened to you committing that is not the answer. Traumatic events can change us. I'm sure some of the good brehs here will help you. Looks like some are already doing so privately. But if you can please look into seeing a licensed professional about this.