Is there anyway to fix this

[IceCold]

I have a depression, when look at my life I had so many opportunities and I seem to have wasted all of them, when I look back 10 years I was full of promise and energy now I cant even get up out of bed. Most of the people I hung around are doing relatively well got kids a girl and place of their own but me on the other hand just have a failed stint in the military. The worst part about this was the last girl I was with was ten years younger then me and addicted to dope. What I find unbearable about this, is every time I try to break my routine something out of my control happens that throws right back into depression and defeatism. I want to finish school but I cant find the energy to even try. I want to be a better person like everyone else but I just cant seem to get out of my own way. What I think is so harsh about my situation is that I've thought about just checking out so to speak and saving everyone the trouble. I feel that if i travel things will be different but my history has proven that to be a wrong assumption. Can my life be fixed ? Or I am destined to be a failure ?

 

[Myrical Lyfe]

You create your own success. Your stuck in a negative mind state. You need to be positive and follow your passions, the rest will follow. The gs don't work out, because they were just not meant to be in your life.

 

[IceCold]

You know any books that cover this type of stuff?

 

[Myrical Lyfe]

No. It's experiences through life that makes you. fukk what books say. You gotta be strong.

 

[Marco Zen]

Sounds like you on some extreme self pity. Borderline suicidal. It can be fixed. There's no magic wand to fix that. You gotta fix it.

 

[IceCold]

Sounds like you on some extreme self pity. Borderline suicidal. It can be fixed. There's no magic wand to fix that. You gotta fix it.

Whats really sucks is if i attempt suicide this time i probably wont fail.

 

[thegreatwb]

I have a depression, when look at my life I had so many opportunities and I seem to have wasted all of them, when I look back 10 years I was full of promise and energy now I cant even get up out of bed. Most of the people I hung around are doing relatively well got kids a girl and place of their own but me on the other hand just have a failed stint in the military. The worst part about this was the last girl I was with was ten years younger then me and addicted to dope. What I find unbearable about this, is every time I try to break my routine something out of my control happens that throws right back into depression and defeatism. I want to finish school but I cant find the energy to even try. I want to be a better person like everyone else but I just cant seem to get out of my own way. What I think is so harsh about my situation is that I've thought about just checking out so to speak and saving everyone the trouble. I feel that if i travel things will be different but my history has proven that to be a wrong assumption. Can my life be fixed ? Or I am destined to be a failure ?

As someone who struggled with depression after the military, I can relate. I experienced some pretty bad stuff especially near the end of my duty and it had me pretty messed up. I was having thoughts of suicide, loneliness, laziness, worthlessness etc...I personally didn't think depression was real until I had to live with it. Before that, I thought I was invincible. The best advice I can give is to try to surround yourself with positive people or people that really care about you. People will tell you to just snap out of it but trust me, it isn't that easy. If you have access to the VA, I would suggest you go down and ask to see a counselor. It took me a couple years of therapy and medication and I still go to check in just to make sure I'm still headed in the right direction. Help is out there but it's not going to come to you. You have to go all out if you want things to change. Good luck.

 

[Marco Zen]

Whats really sucks is if i attempt suicide this time i probably wont fail.

No what sucks is your that fukkin selfish of a mfer to do it. You willing to crush all the poor saps out there that care about ya silly ass ... That shyt you described dont sound that fukkin bad

 

[Theraflu]

You know any books that cover this type of stuff?

breh, have you done therapy or meds yet?

 

[IceCold]

Ive done therapy im currently taking olanzapine

 

[Theraflu]

Ive done therapy im currently taking olanzapine

okay, did you notice any changes or improvements with medication and therapy ?

What would you say was the cause of your depression ? when did you first notice it (i.e was there a trigger) ?

What is your social/dating life like at the moment (friends, girls etc) ?

Finally do you have any possible direction which you would like to go in career wise ? how old are you ?

Answer this and i'll be able to give you detailed advice.

 

[Myrical Lyfe]

We're here to help. Don't do something stupid.

 

[Momentum]

Just work hard man. Each day has it's gems. You have to find those gems and hold on until your work pays off.

 

[pickles]

Since your taking medication continue with it, go see your doctor, maybe he will increase the dose or change the medication. Remember the chemicals in your brain are off balance. Make goals for yourself, start small, like waking up by a certain time etc. Then make even bigger goals. Killing yourself aint the answer breh.
Take life a day at a time. You will have bad days, but there will always be good days too, and that is something to look forward to.

 

[Colilluminati]

Depression isn't real.Stop watching tv and stop listening to music.