I'm so hurt right now.

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Went to go visit an old friend from work. backstory is she was just gonna be a jumpoff. Until we really started talking, she's telling me about her man beating her up etc..this was in 09. We've been on and off lovers since then. She's got a family with dude, and whatever. They've been together for a while. and its cool, but she know's I love her, even went to frisco in 2010, 2011 to see her, cool. So she's in ATL for a job conference. in 2016. Says she wants to get together but then doesn't but we end up getting together. And from the moment i alert her I'm there she is a total a$$hole. Knowing I don't have anywhere else to stay, she's threatining me with going back to her room. because I'm having an issue finding her in the middle of busy ass Atlanta. anyways we link up. she wants some weed. I came to take her out have fukk and fukk. She has a shytty attitude most of the time. Well not shytty, but doing stuff like turning on the radio of my rental to listen to BS and turning off the AC cause she's cold n/m the fact I'm driving and I rented this rental. So anyways she wants weed. I call my family in the A. and My cousins homie was shot an killed. he's out viewing the body. so It's not like I can just make this nikka move like that. So we go to Mangos. I don't eat that shyt. but whatever that what she wants. she's from Oakland and doesn't want typical oakland fare. So I buy her food. Buy her weed. and by the time everything wraps up its late. Late for her especially because she has to go to work early. so we have to get back to the OMNI ATL has literally no parking so we ride around and im like fukk it I'll park at the hotel. The whole time we get back she is a bytch. Her baby daddy wants to talk. so she's like go in the bathroom. I do, but i take a chair, and she's even more pissed. scared that this nikka would notice a missing chair via skype. So I hit her with that I'm already close to blowing on yo ass steeze but her mans a woman beater. so i do it. Anyways after all that shyt i decide to smoke a black n mild outside. and she freaks. Talking about this a four star hotel, you just a guest, why aren't you sleep etc...I'm up cause I know now I'm not getting laid, I'm drinking because I'm not sleepy and I'm just overall pissed. So she starts getting really neurotic. telling me I can't smoke because....And calling me drunk cause I blowed on her ass for not letting me smoke. and yeah I called her some shyt but in response to me having a shytty night and being talked to like a child. Anyways this chick calls security and tells them that I'm too drunk. and she doesn't feel comfortable with me in the room while she sleeps. So at this point I'm heated. I'm snapping, not cause I'm drunk. But because I've been treated like shyt all day and she's talking boss shyt. I leave and go back to bham.(But I'm drunk apparently but can drive 2hrs and 15 minutes without crashing) I'm so mad and hurt. I ain't never felt this way before.
 
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Went to go visit an old friend from work. backstory is she was just gonna be a jumpoff. Until we really started talking, she's telling me about her man beating her up etc..this was in 09. We've been on and off lovers since then. She's got a family with dude, and whatever. They've been together for a while. and its cool, but she know's I love her, even went to frisco in 2010, 2011 to see her, cool. So she's in ATL for a job conference. in 2016. Says she wants to get together but then doesn't but we end up getting together. And from the moment i alert her I'm there she is a total a$$hole. Knowing I don't have anywhere else to stay, she's threatining me with going back to her room. because I'm having an issue finding her in the middle of busy ass Atlanta. anyways we link up. she wants some weed. I came to take her out have fukk and fukk. She has a shytty attitude most of the time. Well not shytty, but doing stuff like turning on the radio of my rental to listen to BS and turning off the AC cause she's cold n/m the fact I'm driving and I rented this rental. So anyways she wants weed. I call my family in the A. and My cousins homie was shot an killed. he's out viewing the body. so It's not like I can just make this nikka move like that. So we go to Mangos. I don't eat that shyt. but whatever that what she wants. she's from Oakland and doesn't want typical oakland fare. So I buy her food. Buy her weed. and by the time everything wraps up its late. Late for her especially because she has to go to work early. so we have to get back to the OMNI ATL has literally no parking so we ride around and im like fukk it I'll park at the hotel. The whole time we get back she is a bytch. Her baby daddy wants to talk. so she's like go in the bathroom. I do, but i take a chair, and she's even more pissed. scared that this nikka would notice a missing chair via skype. So I hit her with that I'm already close to blowing on yo ass steeze but her mans a woman beater. so i do it. Anyways after all that shyt i decide to smoke a black n mild outside. and she freaks. Talking about this a four star hotel, you just a guest, why aren't you sleep etc...I'm up cause I know now I'm not getting laid, I'm drinking because I'm not sleepy and I'm just overall pissed. So she starts getting really neurotic. telling me I can't smoke because....And calling me drunk cause I blowed on her ass for not letting me smoke. and yeah I called her some shyt but in response to me having a shytty night and being talked to like a child. Anyways this chick calls security and tells them that I'm too drunk. and she doesn't feel comfortable with me in the room while she sleeps. So at this point I'm heated. I'm snapping, not cause I'm drunk. But because I've been treated like shyt all day and she's talking boss shyt. I leave and go back to bham.(But I'm drunk apparently but can drive 2hrs and 15 minutes without crashing) I'm so mad and hurt. I ain't never felt this way before.

And there are elements of simping, namely spending money without sex, but I wasn't even pissed at that. This is suppose to be my friend. now recognizing everything she does have anxiety attacks and shyt like that. But I'm not mad about money. I went to the A and you spend money when you go to the A, I can process that. But the fact she was an absolute bytch, had me thrown to the curb and tried to tell me I was drunk.(I even told my sis what happened. I had three beers and even she knows me well enough to be like....nah you wasn't drunk) because I'm damn near part russian lol bad as that is. It fukked me up.
 
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And there are elements of simping, namely spending money without sex, but I wasn't even pissed at that. This is suppose to be my friend. now recognizing everything she does have anxiety attacks and shyt like that. But I'm not mad about money. I went to the A and you spend money when you go to the A, I can process that. But the fact she was an absolute bytch, had me thrown to the curb and tried to tell me I was drunk.(I even told my sis what happened. I had three beers and even she knows me well enough to be like....nah you wasn't drunk) because I'm damn near part russian lol bad as that is. It fukked me up.

The main issue is I feel so lonely now. Like everything I do turns to shyt. I mean My homies are terrible to women, You would think at least one would be like hey you know what you aight. Maybe not even marry but at least fukk with some sort of way. But alas it didn't play out that way. And to be fair. Women don't owe you shyt. personally no one knows you shyt. but I'm just like damn. this couldn't result in renewed interest a deeper friendship hell anything.
 
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Some people just are...gone man what can I say. I mean you tried your best to be cordial and keep things going if she can't appreciate that then you gotta keep your distance

I feel you. But I hate when emotionally damaged people get to claim sanity like I'm the bad guy. But your right. In a perfect world I should do what you suggested.
 

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Its not dark. It's the truth. Crazy women are to men what thugs/bad boys are to women.

It's human nature to be attracted to someone who sends mixed messages, that you cant figure out. You're not sure whether or not your interaction will be pleasant or not so you do your best to be nice/a simp/or cape because youre trying to basically buy a good reaction because when it's good, it's really good.

But you gotta remember, that when people treat you like shyt, they aint worth your time. Youre not a priority to them so dont make them one of yours.
 
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nikkas love crazy women. Love women who get into shyt and treat them like shyt because they wanna :cape: and save them.

Dont.

They dont wanna be saved.

Stop wasting your time. But you aint gon listen to me tho. So I should stop wasting mine.

No, I'm listening. She's still gonna be my friend, but as for something more nah. Ironically while I will admit she's crazy, she's probably the smartest person In my circle. She's got issues, but brains is definitely in her favorite, definite reason i dug her.
 
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No, I'm listening. She's still gonna be my friend, but as for something more nah. Ironically while I will admit she's crazy, she's probably the smartest person In my circle. She's got issues, but brains is definitely in her favorite, definite reason i dug her.

i get that you have history but why do you want to still be friends with someone that treats you foul?
 

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The interesting thing is - damaged people tend to spend time with damaged people :jbhmm:

Why do you love someone who doesn't love herself?

Sounds like you have some soul searching to do OP.
 
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