Have to add on a little more to this because i want to raise a point.
Back in 99 when i was 12, i experimented with going to church when i was severely depressed. That only last for about 2 sundays because a whole lot of wtf was exposed.
One of the things that turned me off about the whole church thing aside from "the old obese lady catching the holy ghost bullshyt", membership fees, rev having a brand new car better than the cars the whole congregation had, and etc etc was the sorry soul mentality that he was pushing onto his damn church members. It was like a "give up, stop living life and let "god" handle it". It was like "wait, what?". Then what really shut me off completely was some young dude got up on stage and started singing some song about how miserable he was and how everything was going to be great when and i quote "his life was over". Now im like dude, did you really sing about wanting to die to be "closer to god" and the afterlife while singing about having a hard life while being alive". Now dude is singing about being depressed, wanting to die because the after life would be better than his actual life he had at that moment. The church members were applauding him and im like... "naw, What type of message is that?" What type of message does that give a young black boy or young man at a time when DEATH was fashionable? For those that do remember, we are talking about when mobb deep murda muzik came out. That was the ignant era. I was depressed and got more depressed hearing that. They preparing folks to be hopeless, getting themselves ready to die "in the name of jesus". fukk that shyt. Its a self destructive type of mentality thats associated with that at least the way i seen it used growing up. I cant mess with religion for that reason