I remember it like it was yesterday. It was winter break 2002. A couple of days before Christmas actually. My little cousin and I were watching my dad's porn on vhs(
porn on video cassette the good old days). I heard of jacking off before, but never tried it. I really wasn't sure how it worked. Anyways im sitting there eleven years old dikk harder than missile. I noticed nikkas would be off to side rubbing rubbing there dikks when they wasn't fukking the bytch. So, I went to the bathroom penis erect and gave it the old college try. I couldn't even fit my whole hand on my dikk, so i had to use my middle,pinkie, and ring finger. I just remember being real horny...then i came. my first load came out looking like a visine eye drop. It was a weird moment with a multitude of different feelings and emotions. I just remember a weird sensation that felt really nice followed by feelings of guilt and shame. I spent almost a good 10 years of my life doing the five knuckle shuffle. A lot of times were had good and bad. But as of July, 3rd 2012 I have been masturbation free. this has been the longest period of life since i began jacking off without masturbating. In a couple weeks ill make a year. Of course I miss jacking, but the things i gained compared to what ive left behind makes it an even trade off. Masturbation was used a tool for me to escape reality, instant gratification, and way of staving off pure boredom. But now im much more social, i enjoy the smaller things in life a lot more(women look so much better when youre not beating off
), and i dont have to deal with any more post nut sluggishness. Im not tryna knock nobody for jacking, in fact next time you beating off rub one out for me. Im done brehs. Im putting on my coat and hat and going home.