Disgusting thread. You should be banned from this site to pull yourself together before you cant be pulled back together again.
You took a vow like promises. You took an oath before the Lord friend. You promised him, you looked in her eyes and you promised her but here we are, in our feelings, embracing demonic Filth to get respect from demons.
I feel so sorry for you friend. I feel so empathetic to your wife. We promise to obey and to work out our difference, not run away with women whos very existence is our destruction, through pleasure.
Proverbs 6:24-29
To preserve you from the evil woman, from the smooth tongue of the adulteress. Do not desire her beauty in your heart, and do not let her capture you with her eyelashes; for the price of a prostitute is only a loaf of bread, but a married woman hunts down a precious life. Can a man carry fire next to his chest and his clothes not be burned? Or can one walk on hot coals and his feet not be scorched? ...
You really need to locate the real problem in your marriage and eradicate this satanic relationship with your adultress because friend, evil cannot hold love together, no matter what youre telling yourself. Evil will walk you to your deathbed, give you a needle to put in your arm, inject you with pleasure, then destroy you.
Good luck.
Its so demonic, friends.