Way too much focus and energy spent on the IDEA, the DREAM of marriage, the concept of what a husband and a father is.
I'm curious what his childhood was like, the parental triangle. Either he has a dad that he looks up to and wants to emulate, or more likely a dad that wasn't fully present that he's trying to be better than, conceptually at least.
The problem is, the mind is perverse...rumination perverts everything, self image, sex, relationships...it's a problem generating machine and is fixated on all the reasons why he NEEDS to be a father and a husband to fill some sort of gap in his development. Now he's getting 'old' and more and more anxious which means he'll either spend another 10 years doing the same shyt he's been doing or end up just settling on knocking up some woman who's not repulsed by his neediness.
Ain't got shyt to do with his looks, that needy shyt is energetically repulsive and only going to attract the type of women who he doesn't want to marry or have children with.
I'm curious what his childhood was like, the parental triangle. Either he has a dad that he looks up to and wants to emulate, or more likely a dad that wasn't fully present that he's trying to be better than, conceptually at least.
The problem is, the mind is perverse...rumination perverts everything, self image, sex, relationships...it's a problem generating machine and is fixated on all the reasons why he NEEDS to be a father and a husband to fill some sort of gap in his development. Now he's getting 'old' and more and more anxious which means he'll either spend another 10 years doing the same shyt he's been doing or end up just settling on knocking up some woman who's not repulsed by his neediness.
Ain't got shyt to do with his looks, that needy shyt is energetically repulsive and only going to attract the type of women who he doesn't want to marry or have children with.
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