When you took f*ck buddies outta the equations, I was like
. I've only had 3, but only 2 were what I consider long-term (1 - 1.5 years). I realized how much I sucked at relationships before I hit 20 (I'm 21). I'm too independent, and aloof and I'm not affectionate to the point where verbally express my feelings (too cheesy for me)
The first one I went out with for about 8 months and I rarely used to call her and I thought she was ok with it because she never complained until one day she broke down on me and told me how she felt and I was like
I figured she was a drama queen and I
her, but then I realized it wasn't her, it was my ol' emotionless a$$ because when I broke up with the 2nd one, she told me the same thing about myself that the first one did and so did my own mother
The 2nd was my f*ck buddy for a while until last year when she caught feelings again
. I'm just not built for dat relationship life brehs