OP I fux wit you so don't take this as a dis.
If you have to hide your true expressions so that white people don't get offended that is the very essence of working for the man.
I say this as someone who spent half my life living in mostly white surroundings trying to make sure I didn't post anything too militant on FB for fear of my job finding out.
I use the Coli exclusively now and I don't post my music (which never got any traction anyway) or my pic or my name or anything cause I don't want any of this to ever come up in my real life.
I recently walked away from a nice ass job, a fun gf, and a sweet apartment to come live with my Moms. I did this cause the money couldn't buy me peace of mind in the heart of Trump territory. When I first got there I thought shyt was sweet, but this election really got to me and I just left it all behind.
The movie Get Out came at such a perfect time cause I been at that same party about 64 times. My neighborhood was like that. The bar across the street was like that. Work was like that. shyt was maddening at a certain point and the movie captured it.
Anyway. Back in the hood. My check was half of what I was used to seeing, but my bills are less than half what they used to be, too.
I'm rambling as I am want to do.
Point is: what you are describing is exactly seeking white acceptance. It's fine. It's the adult thing to do. As long as your crib and your peops are what and who you want them to be, the job situation requires you to keep your opinions behind closed doors.
All I am really saying is: just own it. Being militant 24/7 only works for people who have found a way to sell it. Art of War says don't telegraph your moves. So get money, make your moves, keep your head low, and once you are in a position to make something happen, do it.
Just don't bullshyt yourself.