“Guys, I don’t know how much longer I can handle this. Every day is a constant struggle to keep my sanity. I love wrestling and it’s all I ever wanted to do. Already going crazy since I’ve been for like ten months now, but it gets worse. Every day atrainergoes out of his way to rib or disrespect me in front of the boys because I’ve been out so long. I can’t clear myself. I wanna wrestle more than anything, but I don’t even know who I am anymore. It’s so fukking hard. I just feel it just building inside of me and I don’t know how much longer I can contain it. I have daydreams of just fukking everyone up on some real shyt. I’m not a kid. I’m a fukking man. But what do you do when the people in charge of helping you get to themainroster are the ones making your life the hardest. I’ve been drinking almost every day. It’s to the point to where I keep Vodka and Gin in my trunk. Help me!