It was very clear this was going to be the case right away when I first heard “Nowhere2go,” the album’s lead single and one that, in retrospect, wasn’t so much an indicator of the album’s sound. The song’s glitchy production, done by Booliemane and Ade Hakim (FKA Sixpress), feels similar to the work of Shabazz Palaces, in that wait how the fukk is he rapping on this? The percussion is all over the place, the vocals heard throughout feel like one of those “pop song but 800% slower” videos, and other little flourishes that can only be discovered on repeated listens. The content itself though? It was a proper re-introduction of Earl/Thebe, giving you an idea of what he’s been up to, how he’s feeling, and where he’s going from here. Despite the somber tone that bars like “Yeah, I think I spent most of my life depressed (Most of my) / Only thing on my mind was death (On my) / Didn't know if my time was next (Next, yeah, yeah)” imply, the use of past tense here is really important, as it’s clear he’s doing a hell of a lot better.
I be with Mike and Med (Mike, Med)
Nowadays I be with Sage and with Six-press, ya dig? (Press)
I'm in L.A. with Glen, please come and claim ya kid
I cannot play with them (Yeah, yeah, uh, whoa)
Above is the shoutout on the track to the friends he’s made or he’s gotten closer to since the last time we heard him, as depression is rarely a beast you can fight alone. He gives a shout out to his fans, but there’s an asterisk there, as despite the fact that “You went and gave me a cape (Cape),” “that never gave me no hope (Hope, yeah, hope, hope).” And as I said before, I still can’t believe that Thebe is rapping on this song. I had a similar reaction to “Ain’t It Funny” by Danny Brown when that came out, although my reaction here was a bit more muted considering the difference in sound/content these songs have. Nevertheless, both songs left me in a flustered state to figure out how their brains are operating like this. Oh and Thebe’s got himself a lowkey Carti flow on this that I like a lot but that’s neither here nor there.
Speaking about brevity earlier, I should probably get back to the rest of the songs, huh? December 24th is one of the album’s most straightforward, living up to the title of the album for just a fukking rap song. The first recorded for the album, Earl/Thebe is just going off an incredible beat with bars like “Allen with the picked 'fro, answer in the outlet / Alley-oopin' all the shyt home / Powered-up, out for the assist / Don't panic when it get cold, we go at it, ho” and “Don't think he said he pro-violence / But it's gon' be your problem if he did, though.” However in the midst of these of bars towards the end, Earl/Thebe raps “Bad apple, daily clashin' with my kinfolk / Bad acid did damage to my mental,” with both these lines indicating major themes on this album, issues with his family and drug addiction.
And conveniently enough, these themes pop up on the next track but it’s clear some time has passed, as Thebe’s had some peace and acceptance, and even regret for how he’s treated his family, specifically his mother, with the bar “Momma say don't play with them scabs / It's safe to say I see the reason I'm bleeding out,” obviously a double entendre for both the literal scabs that develop on your body and the more symbolic scabs, the bad influences on your life that eventually drain you for everything you’re worth. He gets into more of these societal scabs the bar before: “Don't play with us, I revisit the past / Port wine and pages of pads,” referencing South Africa’s history of Apartheid with the references to Port wine and the Pages of Pass, calling back to his South African father who lived in exile in the United States for various periods of his life.
A specific line in “The Bends” hurts even more knowing it was recorded before his father’s death, when Thebe raps early on “Peace to my mans, gotta go be with your fam more (For real).” However despite this bittersweet beginning, the song overall is a song of inspiration, seeing how far he and his peers have come “a long way from the dikkies and dirty JanSports.” The line “Bend, we don't break, we not the bank” reoccurs throughout the verse, repeating both because this is a song and repetition is an extremely popular element used in songwriting, but also as a constant reminder for Thebe and his peers to not let them win and destroy you.
This inspiration keeps ahold on the track “Azucar”, featuring some truly great production from Navy Blue. Bars like “My cushion was a bosom on bad days / There's not a black woman I can't thank” and “I only get better with time / That's what my mom say to dodge Satan” show a positive outlook, but Thebe knows he’s not 100% there yet. There’s still some “sugar in my gas tank” as he says, but there’s still a lot of growth here. I think the songs most powerful line once again is in his reference to his family: “Mama said she used to see my father in me / Said I was not offended.” Having spent most of his early career bad mouthing his father, it’s almost shocking to hear that at one point in his youth Thebe loved his father and didn’t mind being compared to him. It seems now that’s come full circle once again in his adulthood.
This sense of hope moves to the shadows on the intensely paced “Eclipse”, as even on an album filled with blink and you’ll miss it moments and songs, “Eclipse” says a lot in very little time with a hypnotic and psychedelic beat, locking in a tough to achieve loop as Earl/Thebe’s vocals seemed to have aged backwards almost (not shocking considering the album was recorded throughout a three-years span). I consider this a flashback of sorts into a darker time in his life, as after the chorus he opens the song with “Say goodbye to my openness, total eclipse / Of my shine that I've grown to miss when holding shyt in / Open my lids, my eyes said my soul is amiss (Soul is) / The signs say we close to the end (Close)”
While obviously not every song has a clear date of when it was recorded (except for “December 24th”), it’s a bit easier to figure out the timeline when considering how much fame weighs on Earl/Thebe’s conscious. “Facts, it's rugged on the peak / Don't stumble, serve culinary treats, bro (Please) / The herd hungry, gotta eat (Woah)” calls back somewhat to Vince Staples’ intro on “Burgandy”:
What’s up, nikka? Why you so depressed and sad all the time like a little bytch? What’s the problem, man? nikkas want to hear you rap. Don’t nobody care about how you feel, we want raps, nikka. Raps.