Real Talk......like what was previously mentioned, the way I am conditioned and was brought up I don't know how to be a family man.
My moms was the loving parent. My pops was the realest nikka ever. Always kept it 100- which aint a good thing. Real talk a nikka needed a good job or some type of positive regard from his pops comin up.
Pops busted his ass workin, makin sure I had clothes on my back, a roof over my head and food in my stomach. nikka took me to baseball and basketball, taught me to ride a bike, swim lessons, taught me about responsibility, accountability. I can't ever thank him enough for that. But it aint 'love'. I don't get a warm feelin like when I was around moms. He's more like my boss at work. I catch up with him and let him know I'm doin what's right and what I need to do and he signs off on it.
Real talk I've always been distant, like I don't even let my closest friends get that close to me. I don't let broads get close to me, I'm not close to my parents or siblings. If I ever had a kid, I could be 'there' physically and go through the motions for 18years or whatever but I don't think I could 'love' them. I could be responsible and accountable and do the right things but at the end of the day itd be like business.
I'd say yea they are good parents. shyt my brothers and sister are close, they talk and laugh and have relationships and shyt but I'm like the black sheep.
Damn this is a depressing ass post.