Coli Posters with a mental illness

[Cereal_Bowl_Assassin]

Who is that in your avi?

Its right under his name....

 

[Sukairain]

Man ever since I became a engineer I've been struggling with this as well. I love my job but everyday I'm nervous and I've never been like that in life or any other job. Its crazy..

What helped me was last year I hit a career goal that I had set for myself, and when that happened it felt like objective proof that I was actually good enough.

It's one thing when people just pump your tyres up by saying all this great shyt about you, because that's just empty words. What hurt me about it in the past was that they would say all that right, but the tangible rewards never came. They never put their money behind their mouth when it came to me. I was unemployed, I had just failed to get into a PhD programme, and I had never before received any kind of award or accolade. So you can see how a situation like that reinforces your belief that you're just a fake. Because if you aren't a fake then people would put their money where their mouth is.

All of that changed last year when I did win an award and did start earning money. It felt like official recognition for my skills and abilities.

So yeah, that's how I broke free from it. Achieving something that was important to me, but at the same time something that wasn't in my own hands. I can't award myself or pay myself, the academic committee has to decide which candidates deserve that. They recognised me. And that made me feel like I really do have what it takes, that I really do have elite skills, because I beat out lots of people who have that to receive this prize.

 

[null]

I have been diagnosed with imposter syndrome before. It's basically something people have where they are anxious that they aren't actually skilled or good at something, usually in a professional context (this is the case with me). So it's like you get promoted for example and you worry that you aren't good enough for the responsibility you have been given, and that you will get found out and fired soon. You feel like you're a fake who's just fooled everybody into thinking you're the shyt, when you know you aren't and you know it's just a matter of time before you get caught in the lie.

I have mostly gotten over this for the past year or so. I still have traces of it with me though; like I have a really difficult time accepting praise and compliments. I always think that people are just being polite when they praise me, that my work doesn't actually deserve it. But I no longer worry about getting exposed because I have fully accepted the fact that I am very skilled at what I do for a living, that I'm elite at it and deserve all the plaudits.

good post

 

[Art Barr]

I’m adding this to my signature

I can't help that i am cold my nikka tha general.
Yet somebody better get their art barr decoder ring out. When that table in tha sky.
beams over that coli coliseum battle dome fight war room close dome bandshell theatre arena.

Somebody better get tha message.
to whomever does not know.

You better be a cold ass thorough nikka.
to even try that nikka.

Art Barr

A nikka not better than me.
With the beat on.
So i know.
ain't no nikka alive.
Seeing me on some promotional products.
from work in my career with the beat off.
Who sheltered and a homebody.
to a living room online experience at best.

The shyt a passing hilariously funny joke.


nikkaz don't even have high enough self worth.
To even win the most conceited award.
Plus be factually the shyt like me neither.

I wish nikkaz were a good read like you @General Mills.

Y'all other nikkaz.
Y'all should strive to leave the house out there.

You not gon get on and i am around tho.
Like frfr.



Art Barr

 

[Carlton Banks]

probably @Flying Squirrel

he can’t be that crazy tho

cuz when I threatened to rearrange his goofy smile

he changed his avi

You wouldn't rearrange a book shelf nikka

 

[DetroitEWarren]

People who disrespectfully disagree with my views tend to fall on the insanity lists.

What a shocker.

Practice Brazilian Jiu Jitsu on your friends without notice and think something is wrong with them brehs.


This nikka be in the mirror shadow boxing while nikkas trying to smoke.

I seen this nikka greet a random salesman with a full kimora one day . Went right from introduction, to handshake, to kimora .



This nikka belongs in jail

 

[Formerly Black Trash]

You a psychologist too?!?!

 

[old pig]

You wouldn't rearrange a book shelf nikka

wouldn’t have to…I download all my books

 

[Mowgli]

Practice Brazilian Jiu Jitsu on your friends without notice and think something is wrong with them brehs.


This nikka be in the mirror shadow boxing while nikkas trying to smoke.

I seen this nikka greet a random salesman with a full kimora one day . Went right from introduction, to handshake, to kimora .



This nikka belongs in jail

It sounds like he was practicing art.

No different than someone handing you a napkin saying check out this drawing I made.

 

[Afro]

I'm one of those people....

Most of yall know my story, especially my bouts with depression. Hell, one of my missions in life is to help motivate and show people their true form. Make them realize their worth, because not everybody is going to do the shyt.

We living in a cold ass time where individualism is running rampant and that alone is a dangerous viewpoint within society because we NEED EACH OTHER more than anything else, especially during this time of covid and no hope for better days.

We joke and shyt on each other in The Coli, but dammit when it comes down to mental health, it should not be a game when you have posters talking about death like it's a common thing to breathe.

You have posters that will not ever see their worth, because this place seems like their safe haven, but what's the use when folks shyt on a mental state?

Hell, after the year I had, at the end of the day I would rather make folks laugh at my marsupial ways, than see folks down due to something that they wish they could control...

Damn, I own you some rep.

 

[UberEatsDriver]

@Billy Ocean - Bipolar

@Gil Scott-Heroin- narcissistic personality disorder

@KingZimbabwe- Depression

@Hiphoplives4eva- narcissistic personality disorder

@Amestafuu (Emeritus)- narcissistic personality disorder

@Bunchy Carter - the child of a freaknik whore.

 

[old pig]

@Bunchy Carter - the child of a freaknik whore.

 

[Morose Polymath]

I'm one of those people....

Most of yall know my story, especially my bouts with depression. Hell, one of my missions in life is to help motivate and show people their true form. Make them realize their worth, because not everybody is going to do the shyt.

We living in a cold ass time where individualism is running rampant and that alone is a dangerous viewpoint within society because we NEED EACH OTHER more than anything else, especially during this time of covid and no hope for better days.

We joke and shyt on each other in The Coli, but dammit when it comes down to mental health, it should not be a game when you have posters talking about death like it's a common thing to breathe.

You have posters that will not ever see their worth, because this place seems like their safe haven, but what's the use when folks shyt on a mental state?

Hell, after the year I had, at the end of the day I would rather make folks laugh at my marsupial ways, than see folks down due to something that they wish they could control...

Great Post. You still aint shyt tho.

 

[KingsOfKings]

If you do not stop nikka.

I was walking an talking at six months old and making museum classically trained fawned over pieces at three.

You better take yo failure face ass the fukk on somewhere.
If any nikka say sumfin about me.

You better have yo life mastered.

Art Barr


God put me here.
to let you know i am better than you.
Actual human life would be huff without me...thank me later.
Not a nikka who got pissed on. As a result of the pedigree from which created the draw for you sheltered homebody ass nikkaz and bytches.
To even know what rap was from your living room.
Where you still struggle culturally.
with everything in life.
to a non-existant draw in your personal interest.
Plus whole lame ass sheltered homebody ass life.







Art Barr

 

[Jim Cornette]

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