when i got older and my parents did not let me go back to college.
as they were broke, from my brother's operstion but did not tell me.
i was searching for someone to give me some balance.
or just to finally be a father or parental to me.
to tell me for real what life was about. past all my knowledge of self and personal conspiracy libraries, were saying.
plus,..i could tell i was suing powers more powerful than i knew on the surface.
like why is the former vp of ibm working at my isp company and such a fukk up.
my former company can't be paying him what he is really worth.
i was mentored as an adult by this lawyer's husband.
her husband had acquired cancer by this time.
he is the black scientist who pretty much created all the plastics and polymers at dupont.
him And my dad were bff's.
they hung out and bought records and watched all the sporting events together. back then getting cable and shyt like that wasn't easy. he even beat all the nintendo games in one night all the time.
like zelda he would beat in a day and i would call him for tips as a kid.
i pretty much emulated both of them to the t.
as a matter of fact,..if anybody knows me. they know i love meat,..like fukk candy,..gimme a damn steak!! i got that because my parents think they are some health nuts, when i was a kid.
i cried all the time as a baby cause my parents never fed me real shyt.
just rice and bullshyt veggies.
plus i was at this horrible babysitter/orphanage. this lady only took care of kids because she probably was one of those lady's they gave government check too,..my dad's friend is the one when i was like seven months old. i could walk and talk by this time. he was the one, one day at breakfast that was like fukk all this cryin shyt,..gimme that bacon. he was the one like eman,..walk over here and get this. i cried and walked over there to him, took the bacon and never cried again. duke was more than a brilliant scientist, he was the best father a kid could have.
he did not have a kid till like 82..so between all that time. he always just watched me,.like volunteered.
i could walk and talk at six months and draw and copy comicbook characters at three. i could read at four. so i was not a hard kid to take care of like that.
plus i liked records and played videogames and he was the best at videogames since coinop atari, galaxy or intellivision.
then we moved up the street, and they moved up the street, after.
now mind you this is chicago,..this isn't like some town. where you just meet new people.
this is when el ruken's and really white good ole boy's were in full effect.
as i got older i realized how insulated the families i was integrated around were.
as a precaution to the wrong crowds. plus my family and their friends were squares and transplants from the east coast. if they were street, you weren't in chicago. that is how ill the streets used to be in the chi.
that is how close our families were. as a matter of fact i discovered hiphop over theirhouse, on pbs at their crib.
chicago did not participate in hiphop or rap/breaking till the roxanne wars.
breaking and beatstreet were dissed in the chi,..as weird. the roxanne wars and national breaking contest is all chicago was about in small sectors of the culture. in chicago,..it is all heavy gang shyt.
i could watch tv free reign as early as four. so i watched pbs all day. i will never forget that day cause that was how i saw the documentsry of ny gangs. plus later on the doumentary on hiphop. i would watch these documentaries whenever they aired.
in visits back east i would get tapes or learn of records to ask for, from my cousin.
my dad and this dude collected records, and two inch reel tape and projector movies too.
i loved setting it up and watching the red hen when i was a kid,....i dunno what it was about that movie but i remember that.
so back then i would explore their collections from projector movies to jazz on two inch and of course,....VINYL!!
i got my first real record player from this, a windup fisher price. which would evolve over the years.
into the full record player w/ detachable speaker fisher price unit.
by the time i was like maybe seven.
then i graduatd to being allowed to play my dad's bang and oluffsen, a little later on the full stereo.
as early as four i had a small collection that began with another one bites the dust.
to mostly all the sugarhill records of note and double dutch bus,...crash crew radio and double dutch bus were my favorites. i have pix of me record shopping.
on seventy first, and hyde park as early as six years old in bboy gear.
i was always into hiphop,..and hiphop always saved my life, too.
when i left cvl,..i emmersed my self in knowledge of self teachings at twelve and graf.
anyone who knows me slightly as a kid. not from a parental relationship could tell you i had a whole bunch of music and read alot.
i never knew the full story to biters in the city back then and i had that on tape.
my bff larry visited from baltimore and was the most kind kid.
not a street kid at all,..so him getting shot was someone preying on him.
he was like six.nine at fifteen and could not play a lick of bball.
he got shot for a chinese full length leather coat.
i am sure someone targetted him cause he was not no street dude at all.
his grandfather taught us how to race and olympic jump, when we were shawty's. which is how i got into athletics and sports.
which is how i won medals at camps when i got older. before i injured my ankle playing ball and got stuck in the forrest gumps till high school.
so it is not like i was just some unknown kid to this lady. i was definately babysat by her husband at a very early age. her own father and husband taught us about manhood and fatherhood. he even showed us how to cook cause she could not, originally.
everything i was into came as an extension from her household. i even got engrained and learned to break and my first tile cardboard setup from their crib.
so for her not to handle my case.
or make sure i was in the best care made no sense whatsoever.
her own husband looked after me,..since i was born,....
i babysat her kids since they were born,...
so her giving me wackass referrals and poor advice.
made no fukking sense, logically or historically.
i believe she backed out because of powers greater than her.
my company i tried to sue was the darlings of the chicago commerce.
plus huge in crain's overnight. plus the cubs sponser in short time, and i wws number one i sales. so it is not like i was at some little lightweigt company.
art barr
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I remember Sermon debunking that shyt, I think he said she wanted him to smash but he wasn't having it, so she ran with the dl angle, it's funny because sometimes her gossip is on the money like the method man shyt, however notice the difference of the stories, sensational vs the mundane.
(The Prodigy and Tigger interviews are Top 5 fukkery in my book 
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this shyt spooky af
