*disclaimers: this shyt might be long, jump around, and i might ramble/go off on tangents, so apologies about that up front*
aight, after 3 cups and relaxing on them sticks, I think i'm finally in the right state of mind to respond to 'preacher man'... @
Walt that story touched on so many topics and emotional spots, I don't know where to begin...so i'm just type and let it flow, whatever comes out, so be it....
- 1st let me say RIP to your boy rome...to lose someone you click with, that becomes a partner like that, aint never an easy thing...it hit home and how you reacted (initially, in the back of the Volvo, and even now) is an example of how most brothas in that situation would...starting at young ages, we get desensitized to so many fukked up things in life, that we tend to become numb...so when shyt initially happens, it doesnt hit us like that...it's not till later on, after life has piled on enough shyt, till you release all that pent up emotion...
- the part about your uncle and his daughter....man, that shyt was so touching and great examples of life teachers...him teaching you to hit the curve (which was more a lesson for life than it was just hitting a curve ball), beautiful...him continuing to teach during that fukked up situation he experienced, beautiful...that shyt was powerful, I just hope muthafukkas realize how powerful it is....i mean, you and he both knew he was in a fukked up spot, but to keep the situation as calm as possible, to help you more so than himself, he talked about something he knew you'd connect to...not only that, if those were his last moments, it was something that would allow him to give those last words of wisdom to help you live a better life....I mean, that's just fukking beautiful....we (blacks) need more shyt like that...we need more of the elder teaching (not preaching) to the youth earlier on about life...and not just the fukked up things in life...we need more women talking to young girls about what it means to be a woman...maybe then they'd stop being emotional and fukking (i mean that literally) punching bags to any guy that comes along and gives them attention....we need more men talking to young males about what it means to be a man...maybe then we'd stop being emotionless, cookie cutter stereotypes that we pattern after a fictional being entertainers (mostly rappers) create cause no other male figure was there...yea, we tend to have our boys and the older cats that are around the way that help us, but guess who they patterned themselves after in most cases? yep, that same being created by those same entertainers....which leads me to the part about his daughter being a great life teacher...and this is more so a salute to you walt...the fact that you didn't hit her over the head with that blunt dose of reality about the flowers, was a beautiful thing....you continue to let her be a child, enjoy the innocence of life, and be amazed by the flowers...our people tend not to do that...instead of encouraging our youth to follow their dreams and try to achieve the impossible, we tend to introduce them to the harshness of life as quick as possible...which causes them to age...we ruin life for them...
- to continue with the last point, it trips me out to hear us talk about what it means to be a man...to be a man, you gotta follow a certain guideline, and if you dont, you not a man...the reason why it trips me out is because the shyt we're taught about being a man, is usually the opposite of what our male counterparts of other ethnicities are taught....but we don't learn that maybe we didn't have to follow that guideline so tightly until after life has kicked us in the ass and the our counterparts are sitting there pointing, laughing, and/or shaking their heads...i'm stop there cause that's off topic...
...damn, I just threw myself off about whatever else I was gonna say lol...guess i'll stop there and pick it up another time when it comes back to me....