i have an emotional imbalance from my childhood (presumed ocd & bipolar), refuse to get it exactly diagnosed... i can go from calm to violent quickly, i harbor hate & depression over my brothers murders as strength, i dont like males, ive tried to stab my moms boyfriend, choked out my bm & stepped to her man, like animals over people, i love fire, love the color & taste of blood... been to jail about a dozen times, they thought i was suicidal, even thought im not... just off top... i love wifey so i snap on her in an attempt to make her leave me so i dont ruin her life, keeps failin ...been here before, i got issues, find the right shrink tell me... quit because i only hear how f_cked up my head is....
outside: egotistical, narcissist, manipulative, outgoing.... inside: depressed, empty, brooding, vengeful...
i can inspire the darkness, i do it now, im not right, where are the friends now???