I'm at that point where everything is draining. My job. My home life. Even my kids. It's all draining and mentally exhausting. I just feel like I am purposed for so much more than what I'm doing but past decisions and mistakes have seemingly sealed my fate that this is all there is for my life.
I fight against that current though. I know there is something more for me out there and that thought, though hopeless gives me a small amount of light that I may succeed.
It's hard getting up everyday and going through the same routine. Only looking forward to the weekends or looking forward to clocking out every day and going home to do something self satisfying for 2 hours until its time to go pick up my kids. This is no way to live.
You have been repurposed
"adapt for use in a different purpose.
"they've taken a product that was originally designed for a CD-ROM and repurposed it for the Microsoft Network"
So you are actually living your purpose,as you were repurposed to be a cog in white supremacy out of the womb.
This is why its pointless to be militant while still operating by the system. You have two choices to make now. Either decide you dont want to be apart of this system,and set a goal for financial freedom. Which will likely still involve the system temporarily at least. But at least your fasttracking your resignation.
The other option is to follow your programming. Be the best damn cog in white supremacy that you can be,and enjoy your assimilation. Right now you are half stepping on both and going nowhere. The definition of a hamster wheel.
