You lack self respect, plain and simple. That’s no diss, it’s something you should’ve probably worked on in your late teens and early 20s. What kind of boundaries do you make in your life? Because it sounds like anything goes. You took a CAC to what sounds like a black event… why?
Not to mention he left you to get jumped solo instead of taking an ass whoopin with you while trying to cause as much damage as possible. What was bringing him around doing to enhance your life? Then you allowed that mouth breathing cave dweller to say racist jokes in front of you? Did you laugh with them? The fact that he didn’t lose any teeth tells me you’re a corny type dude.
You’re pushing 40 and still don’t have it figured out. Get off the internet and go work on yourself breh. You sound like a real lame with no black friends who thought you were showing out by being the black guy with white friends but you were the token negro getting roasted and disrespected WILLINGLY.
I ran a CAC’s pockets in real life outside of a restaurant for saying a racist joke in the booth next to me. Embarrassed him in front of his woman, cus I’m a big scary looking nikka who, to this day, will stomp a CAC’s ears together for racist shyt. You let your white friend do that shyt in front of you.
Wow.
EDIT: I read some of your responses and see you’ve changed. Your Pops was right though. Still breh… I’m looking at you funny. Why did it take so long for you to respect yourself? What actually happened to you to make you ok with subjecting yourself to that level of abuse and humiliation?