Thank you for the slap in the face to wake me up. You have put things back into perspective for me.
Also I know I'm gonna sound like a sexist a$$hole but the only reason men have side pieces/jumpoffs etc is to have something new fresh and exciting. Your jump off after that miscarriage is officially old and used news, nothing exciting or new about a bytch you've fukked 100 times and whose gotten pregnant for you and the baby died. That's not a fun sexy young jumpoff, that's a bytch with emotional baggage that is of no use to you anymore. You've gotten what you wanted from her and you can chuck her in the bushes.
Now cheating 101. NEVER EVER EVER get another permanent jump off or side piece. Stick to random encounters with bytches you do not know (not a dumb bytch who already miscarried) or a bytch you have to see at work everyday. The sneaking, lies and going behind your own ladies back is what will hurt her most, no more jump offs and side piece they always come back and want more (like this bytch) and you don't need that. The type of cheating you do is the type were you go to a bar call yourself 'Gary' or any other fake name, smash chick, next morning burn grass NEVER to see her again, she aint got your number name or nothing that way she'll never come back. You need the sex and the sex only and the thrill of new p*ssy NOTHING MORE. These bytches can't even know your real name, it's that deep.
Finally, respect your wife, would you let her live if she got pregnant for another dude ? NO. So don't do that because that's the ultimate disrespect. If you couldn't take it don't do it. Always always remember the love and respect you have for your wife.
What I do is I imagine and picture my girls face if she found out what I was doing, if you know it would kill her don't do it.
Now if you find you can't survive without letting shyt go too far like u did with this jumpoff, just divorce your wife, free her and let her get with a dude who can. Cos u can't control shyt don't mean u can just bring her along for the ride. Let her move on.
That simple breh.