Alright brehs, I decided to not post until i atleast passed a week of no fap. Im on day 12 now and my biggest issue with masturbation in general is how i sleep. i sleep on my stomach so when i wake up my dikk grinds against the bed and i be horny as fukk
i only sleep on my back when im dead tired otherwise i get night terrors. i sleep sideways but alway end up on my stomach. i'll wake up to but stay in the bed for awhile and go on instagram and look at all these dominican birds with fat asses doing the same poses and it has me
espcially when im half awake.
i had sex a week ago but i dont fukk consistently. no gf and i get home late from work and just end up tired overall. i took a weed break unrelated to this too and that would also fukk me up if i smoked alone because the weed high nut is
even when i had a girl i was still beatin cause i love porn..i been beating off since i was 8!! (i used to hump couches and get that orgasm with no sperm
)
my biggest reason for doing this challenge is to re-wire my brain to what stimulates me. since ive been watching porn for 19 years, nothing really excites me..so i watch big name porn but only get off to jap rapey porn and bondage (i live by kink studios
)
ive realized this is a problem when the last few chicks i smashed...my dikk doesnt get as hard as it used to and its getting embarrassing cause im an attractive man and although im getting my nut..i want these hoes to know im the man at what i do
im desentized to regular shyt and ive finally realized its a problem.
its been 12 days and my dikk is fat like it used to be and im more aggressive when approaching women. i would beat off before i leave the house which would leave me not as into appraoching a woman or trying to get a number. I had the
mindset
I realize when i was working out heavy i didnt care much for weed or porn on a excessive level so im going back to that as well.
I feel like once i hit one month i'll be ok...wish me luck fam, im tired of tying up hoes just to get my nut