The Midnight Marauder
All Star
Day 66. I've noticed small progress, but I still have a long way to go I think.
had a wet dream the other night
on the one hand i was like cuz im 23 n that shyt never happened to me before, actually woke up in the middle of it
on the other hand i was like cuz i had been cultivating that nut for almost 2 months
I'm done man, I'm done with porn and fap. It's like, I know I don't need that crap. If I can go a month, I can keep going. It's all about your choices and what want in life. It holds no will power over me, I am my own worst enemy. When I fell this morning, I was like, "this is what intrigues me?" It took me like an hour to find some basic shyt I've been seeing for years, to even get excited. It's boring as hell and stupid. I am burned out on this shyt. Thank god I've only fallen after a month here, or a few weeks there. Shows that it is near dead in my life. I make a decision to re dedicate myself to God and living right man, that's from the heart.
I'm done man, I'm done with porn and fap. It's like, I know I don't need that crap. If I can go a month, I can keep going. It's all about your choices and what want in life. It holds no will power over me, I am my own worst enemy. When I fell this morning, I was like, "this is what intrigues me?" It took me like an hour to find some basic shyt I've been seeing for years, to even get excited. It's boring as hell and stupid. I am burned out on this shyt. Thank god I've only fallen after a month here, or a few weeks there. Shows that it is near dead in my life. I make a decision to re dedicate myself to God and living right man, that's from the heart.
Damn, sorry to hear you caved in breh. But I agree with you. The only way to successfully break free from the cycle is to replace the urge to fap with something else. For you it's God, for me it was new p*ssy. Hopefully by the time the "new p*ssy" feeling wears off I'll be so far into recovery that I'll be able to manage the urges on my own.