Look lil homie, if I was just screwing with you for no reason (which is a ridiculous notion anyway considering you've EARNED all the disrespect you get), I would just call you names and neg rep you to Bolivia.
Fact is, I realize a part of your personality and mental flaws are not 100% your fault. You come from questionable parenting from a racist father with unchecked emotional and anger issues in your family, all from your own admission. You CAN seek to improve or correct your flaws, but they won't improve until you take the 1st step. Individual responsibility, breh. Acknowledge what you did as wrong and over time you can work to get back in the good graces of everyone. But if you continue to act from the perspective of an Affluenzic spoiled brat, nobody is going to feel sympathy for you.
What you trying to do, brehbreh?