We, us black folk, as a people are often harder on ourselves than we are others. Our hypercriticism is often expressed online with gender and diaspora wars. In hindsight, we constantly question whether our ancestors/elders/leaders were right? If they wanted "equal rights just to fukk PAWGS", if they really chose the right religion to follow, if they set us up to fail.
This self doubt comes from living and experiencing life. Living in a society that nurture these doubts through systematic and systemic racism. Whenever we take a break from beating ourselves up we start to challenge the systems set in place. In response the system uses others to minimize our experiences, colonize our conversations and take 6 plates from the cookout knowing good and gotdamn well they ain't contribute a fukking thing to the function. Except nasty ass potato salad
Others have been built up as model minorities to validate the system. They have been taught to play oppression Olympics to deflect. They have gotten extremely comfortable. It's to the point where they try to tell you about you. Like they've walked in your shoes. Nothing wrong with self reflection or studying the opps. But letting them bring they nasty ass potato salad to the cookout just won't do.
This self doubt comes from living and experiencing life. Living in a society that nurture these doubts through systematic and systemic racism. Whenever we take a break from beating ourselves up we start to challenge the systems set in place. In response the system uses others to minimize our experiences, colonize our conversations and take 6 plates from the cookout knowing good and gotdamn well they ain't contribute a fukking thing to the function. Except nasty ass potato salad
Others have been built up as model minorities to validate the system. They have been taught to play oppression Olympics to deflect. They have gotten extremely comfortable. It's to the point where they try to tell you about you. Like they've walked in your shoes. Nothing wrong with self reflection or studying the opps. But letting them bring they nasty ass potato salad to the cookout just won't do.