which is why I'm deading all posts about her. You've got bigger priorities to worry about than one female in a city of 8 million bodies. allowing this talk? we off that.
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Promised rant post here.
OFT, lend me your ears. I'm about to update you on how things have been going for your 32nd favorite Arsenal fan Arro.
I made the decision to put off the pursuit of IT contract jobs to enter a program that requires me to be on site 30 hours a week, during business hours, to prepare for my first IT certification. And I haven't felt this positive about my future in a long time.
Since May of 2013 I've been on the hunt for a steady check. I'm approaching 18 months of pure fukking struggle. Walking into job sites full of strangers, working my ass off to impress some fukker who's been in the industry for 20 years already, who legit doesn't give a fukk about my progress, my goals, my well being. Ducking collections agents, getting mail from companies telling me how much I owe them, wondering just how far I can stretch my food and transport budget for the month. All types of struggle, the kind that wears at your body, your mind, your very essence as a man.
Yet, since I've began this program, I've been feeling fukking great about myself. I've sat in conference rooms and had people with important titles that I want to hold one day talk to me on a person to person level. I've made contacts that may not pay off immediately but will do me well in the long term. I feel like I'm making progress, and my aspirations to be successful in this game we call life are within my grasp. All I have to do is keep my focus, and keep working towards my goals. Everything I truly want is attainable as long as I push all the unimportant things out of the way and continue working diligently.
I've ditched a lot of people from my inner circle who aren't looking to advance themselves. If you are happy living like a pig on the farm, mucking around in your own shyt, I wish you all the best but I don't need to talk to you any longer. You are not useful to my end product, all you can do at this point is distract me from my ultimate goal. I see myself in 5 years or less making at least 100k, because I am fukking GREAT at what I do, and I will not allow anyone to tell me otherwise. You will recognize me as a hard worker. You will see me as the person you need to talk to to get shyt done. BECAUSE THAT'S WHAT I DO. I see a problem, I find a solution, I deliver that solution, and I do it with an air of levity, a smile on my face, and make you believe that I am that guy. No welbz.
In a month I will have my first IT certification. Next summer I will prepare to gain my second. In another summer I will have my third. I will attend college to get a degree that will further my career and cement my credentials. There is no "I might" or "it's possible" to any of this. It's just "I will" and "I am". And if you can't relate to that, if you don't support my vision, my plan, you go straight into the shrubbery. There is no more space for "I'm doing alright. I'm happy at where I am." I will raise my throne into the stars, and I'll be damned if anything comes in front of that. I haven't even been chatting up women like that because I have more important things to worry about at the moment than which pair of thighs I can land between. Because where I'm going, I can be Lord of the Thighs if I choose to.
Basically the point of my rant is, if you really want something you better be ready to do the goddamn work to make it happen. For most people, nothing falls into your lap perfectly, and if it does you hit the probability lottery. Everyone has dreams and goals and all that nice altruistic bullshyt but most people let life deflect them away from that goal. I am the master of my destiny. I want it, so I will work to make it happen. And in the off chance it doesn't happen, I will know that I did my level best to make it happen, and I will be happy with that. There is no shame in failure if you try.