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who endorsed suicide or said that it was miserable for everybody?
this is my own personally prospective
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feel like I'm just existing, my life have no purpose. It's like a sitcom, like Seinfeld without the light hearted moments. How do people do this life thing? Wake up everyday and bounce out of bed in pure bliss ?
Sometimes I think..what do I have to live for. Like seriously? I'm trapped in a situation that I can't escape. It's like being buried alive. I'm not mentally healthy enough to function in society while at the same time...I'm not insane enough to harm myself. It's a terrible purgatory to be trapped in.
I don't know what I even have to live for anymore. Nothing moves me anymore. Everyday is like that movie groundhog's day. It's a re-run that loop over and over again
I have no idea how people do this for so many years. How do u be happy? I can't see it or understand how anybody can be happy. Seem like this society should've collapsed in utter chaos along time ago, I guess Indoctrination is the only thing holding it together.
Life for the avg black man is pure hell. Everywhere u turn is a pitfall. Everyday is like walking in a mine field, one small misstep and your life is finished. And people have the audacity to ask why you're not smiling....we don't have much to be happy about, atleast I don't.
Life as a black man is a chess match, except when u lose...u lose it all. Your life, freedom or your soul. America set the system up in a way where they forced u to lose atleast one of those things. In order to truly enjoy this country as a black man, if you're not rapping or hooping u have to do some wicked shyt that'll compromise your soul. u can't escape.
Life is hell, the earth is filled with pain. People like me weren't meant for this society. I'm trapped in a world in which I clearly don't belong. I think about death obsessively, all-day everyday now. Alot ppl close to me have been dying which gives me the feeling I'm on the clock. I don't know if it's paranoia or a spiritual force preparing me. Either I hope one day I get to experience some sort of Joy...if that even exist.
