paranoid & high first time around new acquaintances

[2manyFCKNrappers]

the other night i met some really dope people at a hip hop show. they happened to be writers for one of the most popular blogs online. i was there for one of my friends who happens to manage a very popular up and coming LA MC. we were invited to go back to the office and light up. i haven't smoked in forever....i think the last time i smoked bud was in may ( i know that may not sound like that long) but i never like to pass up a good cyph opportunity. everything was going really well. the conversation was flowing and it was all good. then i zoned the fukk out in my thoughts (which i'm used to doing when i'm high). i zoned out to the point where i didn't hear anything anyone was saying. i heard words, and was nodding my head, but i didn't know what the fukk anyone was talking about. what made it worse was that i knew people were talking at me and to me....i was just nodding and halfway smiling...then the jig was up. i had been nodding and smiling and not responding for way too long. i started to notice i was getting weird looks. at that point i knew i was busted for not paying attention and i could tell they felt some type of way i didn't give a fukk about their convo. it would've been better if i had sunglasses on because nobody would've seen my eyes

the moral of the story


wear sunglasses.

 

[DrX]

Well # 1 u shouldn't care what they think unless some money making opportunities was there

#2 why get high if u know u can't handle ur smoke. For all u know one of them could've been a fakkit and took advantage of u

 

[Sensitive Blake Griffin]

or you could've not been a weird fukk and said "sorry, I'm zoning out, I'm super blazed."

or actually be interested in the convo, then you wouldn't feel the need to zone out.

 

[Brown Ant]

@ getting anxiety from smoking. More like you got anxiety and the high amplified it. Marijuana is in your system, who cares if other people think you're high.

 

[2manyFCKNrappers]

Well # 1 u shouldn't care what they think unless some money making opportunities was there

there was/is

but all in all, it wasn't a total disaster. we all exchanged numbers at the end of the night and are planning to go out again. but the cab ride home i really felt crazy....like...i know i blew that opportunity. but i think the way i handled myself in the beginning when we all first met gave me a pass. that's why first impressions are so important.

 

[2manyFCKNrappers]

or you could've not been a weird fukk and said "sorry, I'm zoning out, I'm super blazed."

or actually be interested in the convo, then you wouldn't feel the need to zone out.

i did actually say that. and i was very interested in the convo, it's just that when i'm high, one thought leads to another thought very very quickly and there were about 8 very opinionated hip hop heads high and exchanging opinions very rapidly. it's like i got caught in a matrix of opinions and my brain just went on auto pilot.

 

[Sensitive Blake Griffin]

i did actually say that. and i was very interested in the convo, it's just that when i'm high, one thought leads to another thought very very quickly and there were about 8 very opinionated hip hop heads high and exchanging opinions very rapidly. it's like i got caught in a matrix of opinions and my brain just went on auto pilot.

you prob tripping then, they prob didn't give two fukks that you zoned out, you just being paranoid bruh

 

[LebronsHairline]

Gotta learn to focus harder and fight that shyt. It be happening to me sometime. Be in the middle of a convo and think about the randomest shyt not paying attention to nobody

 

[swimmingpools]