Scustin Bieburr
Baby baybee baybee UUUGH
I lost my father when I was around 14 years old. The last time I had seen him in person, I was 7 years old. He never lived with us and I rarely saw him. Now that I'm 21 years old its really starting to sink in that I never really had anyone to show me how to be a man in my life. My uncles are all embarrassments to the family and serve as a template of what NOT to do.
I've never seen the rest of the adult males in my family and my grandfather is incredibly old and the last time I saw him was maybe when I was 6 or 7. Even though I didn't see my father I have a lot of respect for him. He was a man who was patient, hard working, and generally kind to people that probably didn't even deserve kindness. A lot of my male influences have come from TV, books, music or video games. I've just basically tried to piece together what kind of a person I should be based off those role models.
I hope to have kids someday and when I do I'd try to have as much of a presence in their lives as possible to show them the way. I think there are too many men out here who grew up without father figures in their lives so it really fukks with their emotions and behaviour because they never had that masculine energy to balance out the feminine energy being radiated by mothers, aunts, grandmothers, sisters, etc.
I've never seen the rest of the adult males in my family and my grandfather is incredibly old and the last time I saw him was maybe when I was 6 or 7. Even though I didn't see my father I have a lot of respect for him. He was a man who was patient, hard working, and generally kind to people that probably didn't even deserve kindness. A lot of my male influences have come from TV, books, music or video games. I've just basically tried to piece together what kind of a person I should be based off those role models.
I hope to have kids someday and when I do I'd try to have as much of a presence in their lives as possible to show them the way. I think there are too many men out here who grew up without father figures in their lives so it really fukks with their emotions and behaviour because they never had that masculine energy to balance out the feminine energy being radiated by mothers, aunts, grandmothers, sisters, etc.
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