Not going to knock 'church' as a springboard from the depths of depression if that's what gets you where you need to be.
But understand, you don't NEED the church or any external attachments and at some point, to truly understand yourself, you'll have to let them go, and embody the Christ, be christ-like, for real.
In between services look into nervous system regulation, possibly somatic therapies and techniques, the kingdom of heaven is within you...and when you understand how to tap in, you afford yourself much more ability to manage and control your states of mind.
But understand, you don't NEED the church or any external attachments and at some point, to truly understand yourself, you'll have to let them go, and embody the Christ, be christ-like, for real.
In between services look into nervous system regulation, possibly somatic therapies and techniques, the kingdom of heaven is within you...and when you understand how to tap in, you afford yourself much more ability to manage and control your states of mind.