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I went and looked back at the video I filmed at the party we crashed and the lady sang "I know You, I Live You" by Chaka Khan. I was like, oh I like dat song lemme look it up then I got to the lyrics and she calls me silly, and I tell her everything happens for a reasonEverything seems like a sign or a weird ass coincidence with this girl Like there are times when we were talking or she was sleeping and I was thinking this isn't coincidence.
I mean, not really but yeah. I've been very straight up with her about my lack of experience and my values. And she's been very clear about how sexual she is and what she likes in that regard. Now that alone gave me pause
I figured she's doing her thing out here and on that liberated tip so let me not get too attached. But then she called me up and I'm like she just might like me. I know she loves people, the idea of infatuation has crossed my mind. I think she's fascinated by me, for sure. I'm cautiously curious about her. That's not to say that I don't think she isn't cute af. I mean aside from her looks (she is legit the prototype), I do like her a lot but I don't want to like her too much, too fast. And why is that?
Everything on paper tell me this shyt ain't gon' work, that she's too out there, she's from a different class, different culture, has different preferences, etc. We're literally almost polar opposites. But then I'm like, we definitely do click
She's very well traveled and I'm not so she was asking me don't I have any desire too and I was like yeah, but I been broke most of my life but I told her where I want to go and she was like "my parents were just there. I'll come with you if you got with me here". Now first I'm thinking yo, how the hale did we end up lowkey making travel plans? Then I thought, oh snap, the place she mentioned is literally the one random white ass place I've always wanted to live
This happens a lot, got me between and
Is that weird? Receipts under the spoiler
She called me after she came from the gym that call cut off after 4hrs, then the second one did, too, like her phone was saying It cut off at like 10:40 pm, so I called her back and we spoke for another hour.
For sure. It doesn't feel like love or infatuation or anything when I'm out with her. We were out together again last night and it felt like we're just getting to know each other. Think the all day convos and texts took me by surprise. In person she doesn't seem overly into me, but she makes lots of little remarks on what she thinks and likes about me. I'm a little torn between thinking she wants to go as slowly as I want to go or I want to go so slow that she's gonna only ever see me as her homegirl.Hmm...I'd give it a chance imo.
Some people connect in a instant, while others take a while. I second Agnosticlady and Spotlessmind about infatuation. infatuation and love may feel similar, but if you're not careful...You get the gist of it.
You know what they say "Opposites attract."