So I decided to stop having sex until I knew for sure I was disease free, would use condoms, and knew my sexual preference. I haven't had sex in 9 months, past three days I been feeling like just hitting anyone I see in the streets. My therapist has been telling for the past two months that I need to fukk, but my support network in recovery told me to sit still with self. I hold in a lot, and sometimes attack other people in ways that can create a lot of trouble. Allegedly, being young and abstaining for sex for this long can create problems. But I know people who haven't had sex in like 3 years, or been in a relationship for longer, and they seem calmer and more spiritual than me.
So I think I have to face my fears, but I already know I'm not going to enjoy the sex, but maybe it will help. I always wanted to box, but was afraid I couldn't be discipline or follow rules. Today was a real wild day for me, i'm hoping worse comes to worse I only get an order of protection. Things are going great overall, grateful.
So I think I have to face my fears, but I already know I'm not going to enjoy the sex, but maybe it will help. I always wanted to box, but was afraid I couldn't be discipline or follow rules. Today was a real wild day for me, i'm hoping worse comes to worse I only get an order of protection. Things are going great overall, grateful.
