I used to be Christian and went to a Christian college. I was there on a Christian scholarship and one of the stipulations was that I attend some Christian group meetings. One of the people that attended was this one white lady that was the leader/advisor. I have no idea if she was a student or just advisor but she was at least late 20's. She went through a whole series of trauma as her family was in a cult and she finally found God. Some sad shyt. Anyways, I ended up transferring out of that school but was still part of the church. I ended up going to that years national church convention and spotted her there. This convention was more black than usual since the black side of the church was getting a big push. For the first time the white audience was getting black choirs, and black speakers, known for their showy and entertaining style. She wasn't used to this and asked me point blank while there was a black choir with a lady leading the choir in song on screen...
Her: "How old do you think she is?"
Me: "Eh, about 50-something give or take..."
Her: "Wow."
Me: "Why, what's up?"
Her: "It's weird to say and don't judge me but I'm so jealous of black people and especially black women. She's 50 but doesn't look a day over 35. She looks younger than me...."
I was stunned because I had never heard a white woman or white person ever admit this to me. That was the last time I saw her. I didn't say a thing to her in response to that. I didn't know what to say, period.
I understood why she felt like that. She was in her late 20's and looked at least mid-30's. I can't fault her for that because she had a traumatic childhood but even then deep down this exposes one of cacs biggest insecurities: that they age poorly especially in relation to black people. I always felt white people felt that way deep down but never heard it from the horses mouth until that day. Just another reason why cacettes aren't worth pursuing brehs.
Her: "How old do you think she is?"
Me: "Eh, about 50-something give or take..."
Her: "Wow."
Me: "Why, what's up?"
Her: "It's weird to say and don't judge me but I'm so jealous of black people and especially black women. She's 50 but doesn't look a day over 35. She looks younger than me...."
I was stunned because I had never heard a white woman or white person ever admit this to me. That was the last time I saw her. I didn't say a thing to her in response to that. I didn't know what to say, period.
I understood why she felt like that. She was in her late 20's and looked at least mid-30's. I can't fault her for that because she had a traumatic childhood but even then deep down this exposes one of cacs biggest insecurities: that they age poorly especially in relation to black people. I always felt white people felt that way deep down but never heard it from the horses mouth until that day. Just another reason why cacettes aren't worth pursuing brehs.
