'I still be plotting on the low, Scheming on the low...'

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The furthest thing from perfect like everyone i know'


man this song really hits home with me...

I'm in a existential problem brehs..i been in a relationship for the last 6 months (the first time I've been serious with a girl in my life, and not fukk around)...things are OK between us, she is really what I've been looking for in a female counter-part.

But lately I've observed an increase in my demonic ways. She is really a decent human being that doesn't deserve to be crossed by others or me. And I like to think I'm not a shytty person as well. When I go out only with my friends I keep hitting on girls, getting numbers and looking to fukk other chicks. I have yet to pursue this demonic path, but sooner rather than later I will. Last night the same shyt happened, and today when I remembered the shyt I did, I started feeling guilty as fukk.


Should I just stop being selfish and let this girl go, and start pursuing the demonic ways? Should I stop being such a p*ssy, and just be with the girl I'm with without looking at others? Or should I be with her on some 'What she doesn't know it cannot hurt her' - karma is a bytch though, and I will be sharing her at some point?

I blame this situation on my upbringing and my friends: my father always told me not to put all my eggs in the same basket, and always have alternatives to any girl you fukk with
 
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fukk it breh, I can relate. These dudes probably will try to clown you but fukk it. If you really feeling her like it seems you do, you'll get right whether you do it on purpose or not. If she that good of a girl you'll notice ya ways changing on their own
 
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beck said:
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But lately I've observed an increase in my demonic ways. She is really a decent human being that doesn't deserve to be crossed by others or me. And I like to think I'm not a shytty person as well. When I go out only with my friends I keep hitting on girls, getting numbers and looking to fukk other chicks. I have yet to pursue this demonic path, but sooner rather than later I will. Last night the same shyt happened, and today when I remembered the shyt I did, I started feeling guilty as fukk.


Should I just stop being selfish and let this girl go, and start pursuing the demonic ways? Should I stop being such a p*ssy, and just be with the girl I'm with without looking at others? Or should I be with her on some 'What she doesn't know it cannot hurt her' - karma is a bytch though, and I will be sharing her at some point?

I blame this situation on my upbringing and my friends: my father always told me not to put all my eggs in the same basket, and always have alternatives to any girl you fukk with
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Do you like the girl ? Do you love the girl ? If so, stop your demonic path, it's not necessary.
You've been conditioned to think you have to hit on girls every time to prove you're an "alpha male" on some stuff like that. But that's just ego-tripping and showing off to your homies. Ain't no shame in being faithful and having "old p*ssy" (compared to "new p*ssy" I mean). Your boys will clown you but why would you care about them ? Because you obviously care about her.
 
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Liu Kang said:
Do you like the girl ? Do you love the girl ? If so, stop your demonic path, it's not necessary.
You've been conditioned to think you have to hit on girls every time to prove you're an "alpha male" on some stuff like that. But that's just ego-tripping and showing off to your homies. Ain't no shame in being faithful and having "old p*ssy" (compared to "new p*ssy" I mean). Your boys will clown you but why would you care about them ? Because you obviously care about her.
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i'm new to this shyt...i don't know if it's just infatuation or love or just the need to be around someone....eh fukk it, i'm just going to ride it out and see where it leads me...hopefully i'll make good decisions..
 
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beck said:
i'm new to this shyt...i don't know if it's just infatuation or love or just the need to be around someone....eh fukk it, i'm just going to ride it out and see where it leads me...hopefully i'll make good decisions..
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From being in the same position I can tell you that more than likely if she dosent have your complete attention either your not ready to be in a serious relationship with a good woman or she is just not the one for you.
 
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beck said:
i'm new to this shyt...i don't know if it's just infatuation or love or just the need to be around someone....eh fukk it, i'm just going to ride it out and see where it leads me...hopefully i'll make good decisions..
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Seems like you're with a good girl how you describe her.
Try the faithful way. But try it fully and don't hold anything back. Can't hurt you if you do it that way, because if it works, it's all good, if it doesn't, well, you weren't meant to be with each other :manny:
 
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