Reminds me of my cousin. He realized he was hay at like 46, after 2 kids and 12 year of marriage. He was still cool with his wife until she passed. His daughter (a baddie) and son were cool with this change.
Breh sweet and out the closet but he's probably one of the realist nikkas I know. He grew up in the gutta and worked in rough areas in NYC for most of his life. He's retired, has a very healthy pension and makes over six figures in his consulting business. He didn't start being happy with life until he came out. And his wife said he became a better father too.
It may not feel like it now but this is a blessing.