I was in a controlling relationship on and off for about 2 years. I finally ended things back in June.
Im not going to stunt, at first I liked the fact that someone cared about where I was going and asked me a billion and one questions, texting me while im out just to show that he "cares" . He was very attractive, the chemistry was there, we kind of understood each other on a deeper level, no kids, college student, worked full time, young and a go-getter like me. Thought he was my soulmate.
It felt good....for like the first month, then the possessiveness and severely controlling ways came about. He questioned every single male in my life. I had to cut off life long male friends just to make him happy. Why did I feel that he was worth it at the time? IDK.
First and foremost, I missed all of the red flags! I.E. the constant texts and phone calls, him locking me down and begging me to kill all of my plans with my friends. We got into a huge argument about this so of course I broke up with him. nikka had a nervous break down.....he completely flipped!
I found out that he was cheating on me AFTER i broke up with him the first time. And he tried to make me feel that i was to blame since his insecurities got the best of him and he was forced to fukk an ex-gf.
I cried a lot around that time but now i just look back at it and laugh. Here I am out with my friends trying to enjoy myself like any other 23 yr old while hes blowing up my fukkin phone and blowin out another bytch's back while doing it
I felt so stupid! I was so miserable all the time because he made me feel like I was the unfaithful one and that I was in the wrong due to his manipulation tactics. I was so emotionally drained...I broke up with him again last October....thought I worked him out of my system but he came crying to me because his grandmother passed away (she was basically his mother). I felt so bad for him because his family didnt want shyt to do with him. He didnt have a shoulder to lean on and like fukkin clock work that mf became more and more possessive. He monitored all of my social media accounts daily. He use to love to come and pick me up from work...I thought he wanted to make sure I was safe when whole time he wanted to make sure I wasnt talking to any of my male co-workers. What should have been the breaking point was when that bytch kicked me out of his car at a fukking train stop in the middle of no where!
and guess what? My dumb ass went right back!
I wasted 2 years in that relationship.....2 fukkin years....I believe thats why my guard is up at all times and I tend to not let a guy in every time i feel a guy is getting too close to me.
Around June was when I finally ended things. I woke up one day and came to the realization that I didnt have to deal with the bullshyt anymore. He blew up my phone that entire night (i was sleep!) thinking that I was out in the streets. I blew up on his ass the next day so bad! I blocked him on every thing....cut him off completely. He still find ways to contact me but I changed my number about a month ago...plus I deactivated all of my social media accounts (business reasons).
I didnt realize how foolish and stupid I was acting until I set back and realized everything. I wish I could go back in time and kept it at "Hello and no thank you, Im taken" like I usually do.
Im not going to stunt, at first I liked the fact that someone cared about where I was going and asked me a billion and one questions, texting me while im out just to show that he "cares" . He was very attractive, the chemistry was there, we kind of understood each other on a deeper level, no kids, college student, worked full time, young and a go-getter like me. Thought he was my soulmate.
It felt good....for like the first month, then the possessiveness and severely controlling ways came about. He questioned every single male in my life. I had to cut off life long male friends just to make him happy. Why did I feel that he was worth it at the time? IDK.
First and foremost, I missed all of the red flags! I.E. the constant texts and phone calls, him locking me down and begging me to kill all of my plans with my friends. We got into a huge argument about this so of course I broke up with him. nikka had a nervous break down.....he completely flipped!
I found out that he was cheating on me AFTER i broke up with him the first time. And he tried to make me feel that i was to blame since his insecurities got the best of him and he was forced to fukk an ex-gf.
I cried a lot around that time but now i just look back at it and laugh. Here I am out with my friends trying to enjoy myself like any other 23 yr old while hes blowing up my fukkin phone and blowin out another bytch's back while doing it
I felt so stupid! I was so miserable all the time because he made me feel like I was the unfaithful one and that I was in the wrong due to his manipulation tactics. I was so emotionally drained...I broke up with him again last October....thought I worked him out of my system but he came crying to me because his grandmother passed away (she was basically his mother). I felt so bad for him because his family didnt want shyt to do with him. He didnt have a shoulder to lean on and like fukkin clock work that mf became more and more possessive. He monitored all of my social media accounts daily. He use to love to come and pick me up from work...I thought he wanted to make sure I was safe when whole time he wanted to make sure I wasnt talking to any of my male co-workers. What should have been the breaking point was when that bytch kicked me out of his car at a fukking train stop in the middle of no where!
and guess what? My dumb ass went right back!
I wasted 2 years in that relationship.....2 fukkin years....I believe thats why my guard is up at all times and I tend to not let a guy in every time i feel a guy is getting too close to me.
Around June was when I finally ended things. I woke up one day and came to the realization that I didnt have to deal with the bullshyt anymore. He blew up my phone that entire night (i was sleep!) thinking that I was out in the streets. I blew up on his ass the next day so bad! I blocked him on every thing....cut him off completely. He still find ways to contact me but I changed my number about a month ago...plus I deactivated all of my social media accounts (business reasons).
I didnt realize how foolish and stupid I was acting until I set back and realized everything. I wish I could go back in time and kept it at "Hello and no thank you, Im taken" like I usually do.
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