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. .. im in the same age-range . . just got done with a heart-to-heart with my younger brother who i have a similar upbringing with . . .. i have blood-pressure issues and severe sleep-apnea thats untreated . . .. at-risk for Type II based on genetics . . plus another condition i wont go into but it was service-connected and it could kill me at any moment without warning . . .. . i havent seen a primary care doc in almost 7 years . .. . i had to let him know that our brotherhood is forged in blood, sweat, and tears and that we survived together what would have made the majority fold like food-stamps in a money clip . . ... . i absolutely cant imagine the Reality of your loss. . . especially with me being the older brother . .. . .. i reassured him that i will start making better decisions so that i wont leave early before him . . . im a little younger than your brother but the warning-signs are right in my face . . i need to do better for my family . . .. . . RIP . . .
Yeah my brother never would use the sleep apnea machine, was afib/etc. You never know when that time will come for anyone. My brother and I cried together plenty of times over recent years because my mother has dementia. I took over caring for her from him because he couldn't (had to go to dialysis) my mom was type 1 but after I took over and give her mostly healthy foods, mostly water, she was no longer diabetic in a years time. I peeped it before the doctors told me. I can't even tell you how, just how I felt so I stopped giving her the Metformin I think is called. A month later her doctor said she isn't diabetic anymore and doesn't need it.

I was slowly getting my brother to follow suit but he'd pull shyt like order McDonald's uber eats, meet them outside, eat it, then come back in. He would bojangle on too many things. He got his own apartment a year ago and I told my girl then idk, I don't like it. It's not my fault but I still take blame. If I was successful like a Lebron then I could have gotten him the help he needed.

It's too late now for any of that, I do have a bit of good news. His funeral with burial is slated for Friday. We needed to reach 15k to bury him where my grandmother and others are in VA. But his kids found a place near where they live in Maryland and it's only going to cost $11k for everything including the repass/catering/etc. I'm not sure if they need all or 75% by Tuesday but Tuesday is when we ideally will have all the funds. His kids are confident, we are halfway to the total so I'm hopeful. I'm not in charge, I've never done anything like this, I don't know what happens if if or if :yeshrug:

So I'm just focused on the miracles part, and I'm tasked with giving the eulogy. Because it's my Brother it gotta be good. I have no idea what I'm going to say to make it pop/sizzle but this is where we at :francis:
 

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Sorry for your loss…I know it’s tough dealing with loss during this time, we have a entire library of emotions, when it hits that close to home you don’t have be strong for anyone, let that pain, hurt, grief, sadness, questioning, and anger out now so it don’t eat at you and take you to places that you don’t wanna go.

Praying for better days for you my man. Stay up.
 

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I'm used to these South prices. Where I"m from we know the morticians so they don't try to hit cats over the head when trying to bury their loved ones. Forgot you in an expensive spot.

Know that's tough. I'd send some grub to yall spot if ya need that.

Luckily both sides of my families have people who own their own mortician+cemetery. Some of the plots date back to before the civil war…least on my father side anyway. According to my grandfather(rip) a couple of years after they were freed they brought the land their family was buried at and still maintain it to this day.
 

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I don't know where to begin...

Like a lot of us, we grew up in a one parent household. My brother was just under 7yrs older than me, my mother worked nights.
So my brother was always more of a brother/co-parent. If an older person tried to bully me, he'd come through and handle any issues I ever had as a kid, so he was my protector.Mom dukes working nights meant we was unsupervised at night. And we ALWAYS stayed up to watch the Arsenio Hall show, hopefully Eddie will show up tonight, or Michael Jackson/etc. The doggpound (he loved that show)

His biggest loves in life outside of his family, Was music and wrestling. HipHop specifically, he was a student of HipHop unlike most others. My entire childhood he rocked a boom box. Even had one with a TV built in. That shyt would kill his batteries so he didn't use the TV function very often. I think it took like 12D batteries :manny:
He would play it at night as our go to bed music. Everything from all coast. I grew up listening to Run-Dmc, Dana Dane, We went to the movies to watch Disorderlies (not just the cool movies) He loved Tim Dog, Ice Cube, he was once offered a spot to be in a rap group but he was scared to leave home and go on the road. And wrestling, I grew up watching Every Wrestlemania, I seen Hogan slam Andre, we watched NWA/WCW bash at the beach/etc. The wrestling cartoons that come on Saturday mornings and then wrestling itself would come on afterwards. And Saturday night's main event was dope too. I never ordered none of that, he did. I didn't care for it but I watched like anyone would if it was available. Loved Tiny Lister Jr. I could at any time say "Tony, What's that smell???? And he would reply "Dookieeeee" (if you know you know)

And as for a gamer, he was not a SERIOUS gamer. Actually would always be the weak link. But, my earliest memory in life is barely 2yrs old.We had an Atari 2600 with two joysticks and two paddles. Combat, ET, Atari Boxing, Pitfall. And we had battles in boxing. He won every match at first, then I remember developing a strategy and then beating him more than he beat me. I vividly and fondly remember this. We lived in Beacon Hill Apartments at this time (That place recently got raided by ICE and made national news) He did play with a few of you over the years, Mostly COD games. I remember trying to play the Halo 4 campaign online with him and Chewizzle. Otherwise it was mostly Black Ops 6 these says with his closest friends and my son. He used to post in The Booth and the Squared Circle back on sohh, when The Coli became a thing he migrated like the rest of us but never really posted like that.

4 days ago the doctors gave him 4 days to live, he died 2 days ago at 4:54pm, surrounded by loved ones. Exactly the way everyone says and hopes they can go.
But I have to tell you, that way of going is not easy. It's brutal. I had to watch my world take his last breaths as they took him off life support. I wouldn't wish that on anybody. He was battling diabetes and was on dialysis for a few years. He did not take care of himself, ate foods diabetics have no business eating/etc. And so if any of you are reading this and you living that lifestyle? Don't take it lightly. My brother was only 53.

We talked about death a few times over the years, and he always said he would be cremated. Not because he wanted that, but what do you expect when you're on disability and don't have funds like that. But his children want to bury him where a lot of my family is buried and I personally would like that as well. But we're not financially equipped to make that happen so they started a GoFundMe to see if we can come up with the burial fees. We have until Saturday to come up with the funds. We've raised $2500 so far in idk, 12hrs? But we need help if we're going to reach our goal so if any of you have anything to spare? Give, so miracles can live..




Thank you in advance to any and every....

Court if you ever need someone to talk to you know where to find me. I lost my sister in a similar way to cancer back in 2021 and she was like your brother was to you. She as 15 yrs older than me.
 

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Sorry for your loss breh. But I’ll be honest, I initially read this while driving and thought someone was posting on your behalf. I’m very glad that isn’t the case.
Prayers to you and yours.
Speaking on the topic, shytty eating just another generational curse that I always preach against
 

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What up Rec Roomers....

I first off want to thank each and everyone of you for your kind words and donations.
We was able to raise enough to send my brother off with a burial and everything.
Funeral was on Friday, I struggled to come up with a eulogy all week.
Graduated YouTube University, had my middle down. Couldn't settle on a beginning.
Had no Pastor Jenkins ending prepared :patrice:
I pulled up with my fam and mom dukes who I take care of
Family and friends from all over the country came, pretty much everyone from our childhood neighborhood showed up which shocked me
Just cuz I didn't know he kept in touch with all of them still.

Before I knew it, its my turn to speak. I didn't have a beginning prepared so I started a little slow
So my advice to anyone in the future is to pick an opening even if you don't want to settle on it. You can always transition into a different topic
If you have nothing, you might be at a total loss for words. I couldn't decide what I wanted to touch on and I didn't wanna double back so I paused like if I was getting choked up? But I was just buying time. REAL nikkaZ DON'T CRY :wrist:

The middle was ok imo, I had to cut out a lot of stuff I wanted to speak on because you only get 15-20min tops and you can't be just rambling

I didn't have an ending prepared and I've stated I wanted to end it really well and I feel like I winged a masterpiece... for a beginner.
Because ultimately death is just transportation to the other side :francis:

After the reception, all those friends from his childhood, myself and my nephew all went to a Bar at National Harbor, pounded a bunch of Old Fashions, ate good and shared stories of my brother. Enlightening his son about a bunch of stuff he never heard before.
We celebrated his life that day, it couldn't have gone any smoother.

Taking it one day at a time now, I still have my moments but I'm doing ok. I will be OK
I'm out of the deep end sohh to speak emotionally but I'm still swimming upstream nah mean
With that said, let me thank you all one last time in this thread for everything...


 
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