I'm detached from sex...I don't get sexual urges anymore hardly, unless its some out the box creative shyt. Like a chick tied up with a ball gag or something out of the ordinary. I don't watch porn, even when I try I feel nothing...I just turn it off and go to bed, sometimes I just watch out of amusement..laugh and turn it off like its a sitcom. I just don't want sex. at least normal missionary style sex. I rather cuddle, and have a female hug me and tell me that shes proud of me and that I'm the best. That's really good enough to simulate me physically.
But I'm not no cuck either so this presents a problem. I cant see a female ever staying loyal to me if I'm not getting her off on the consistent basis. Especially in our era, where EVERYTHING is basically about superficial things, material, money and sex.
I've came to the conclusion that I'm gonna be alone my whole life, I actually know couple ppl like that in real life that just caring about relationships and just stayed alone their whole life. I accept that this might be my life. I don't want a kid if the chick isn't fully committed to me.
So i decided to dedicate my time to my craft and find other reasons to live. intimacy is dead anyway. U cant have love or intimacy in an capitalistic society. Love is entirely based upon economic survival in america. No resources, no love. This economic system destroyed relationships, why would she settle with u, when the next guy got more? its basic mathematics. His 100k salary + house - your pure heart = him fukking yo bytch, preferably in your bed.
But I'm not no cuck either so this presents a problem. I cant see a female ever staying loyal to me if I'm not getting her off on the consistent basis. Especially in our era, where EVERYTHING is basically about superficial things, material, money and sex.
I've came to the conclusion that I'm gonna be alone my whole life, I actually know couple ppl like that in real life that just caring about relationships and just stayed alone their whole life. I accept that this might be my life. I don't want a kid if the chick isn't fully committed to me.
So i decided to dedicate my time to my craft and find other reasons to live. intimacy is dead anyway. U cant have love or intimacy in an capitalistic society. Love is entirely based upon economic survival in america. No resources, no love. This economic system destroyed relationships, why would she settle with u, when the next guy got more? its basic mathematics. His 100k salary + house - your pure heart = him fukking yo bytch, preferably in your bed.