It's been a while since I wrote commentary. I blame it on my lack of inspiration.
But now I have a couple of things I'd like to clarify. So here we go...
First off, those of you that follow the SoCal scene already know I was involved in a pretty controversial angle last week-end, where I ended up using the n-word.
Right off the bat, let me say this. What I said has nothing to do with racism, because, well... I'm not racist.
I probably shouldn't have said it but I did, and I can't take it back. I was looking for something strong that would solidify my heel character and I said it. It probably wasn't the best thing, and I'm sure I could have found a better way to accomplish that but on the spot, I just did what came to me.
Now, I'll take my share of the blame. However, I will say this. I think some people are making this into a much bigger deal than it is. Why? Simple. Because according to what I read on various message boards, people don't even remember the situation. They remember the word. That's all.
Some people think I also called Generico a beaner. Others think it was Disco. My point is nobody remembers what exactly happened, they just remember the n-word. To me, that says a lot. By the way...I never called Generico a beaner. And as far as the n-word is concerned, well all I did was repeat a line used by Steve Austin in the Longest Yard.
I remember watching the movie and thinking, when Austin, who played an abusive prison guard, said that line: "What a f*cking a$$hole!" And then I figured if it worked for him, then it could work for me. It just came back to me when I took the microphone at the end of the show and at the time, with the adrenaline flowing and the intensity level as high as it gets, it just came out.
Seeing as how I was having a hard time getting heel heat, I went ahead and did it, hoping it would get me the heat I was looking for. Well, I got the heat all right but I took it too far. Next time I will think more before I talk. If I offended any black people in the audience that night, I am sorry. If I offended anyone else, well then that's just too bad, because besides black people, I don't see who should be offended by it.
All right, hopefully this settles this issue.
sh_t coming out about these guys since Hoegan coming back.
