Alright brehs this mainly so I don't have to look in the mirror and
The quick back story:
Overweight most of my life, been as high as 260 with a lot of help here and just research decided to do something about it. Ran my ass and muscle off to get down to 170 but I was looking sickly. Started lifting two years ago and its been . For good and bad I've picked up some gains that people have noticed but dat dysmorphia fukks with me.
My training is pretty solid. It's mainly upper and lower work 4 times a week with two dedicated days of cardio. Towards the end of the month I'm going to go 3 upper days two lower and add some afternoon LISS is since I will have a gym closer to my office.
Nutrition is my biggest hurdle, that damn premium ice cream. I stress eat as well. Either way I have experimented with IF (pretty solidly for a year plus), paleo and very low carb/damn near keto. My taste has altered to the point i really only want protein and veggies. I'm not afraid of carbs but plan to use them more for fuel than anything. My only requirements nutrition wise will be getting in 25-30 grams of protein 4 times a day when I lift. Everything else falls into place for me doing that with no need to count cals.
I'm not to worried about the scale. Checked in at 5'9, 200 this morning. Lost six pounds last week just from being supper busy at work. I had time to ony lift twice last week but I got my protein and water in so I don't think I think fell off to much.
i just want to get that drive and focus that i had when I first started this journey.
Headed to the gym now.