Black Suicide (Depression)

[The Emperor]

I've suffered from depression for 10+ years but have been feeling inspired and motivated THIS YEAR. I had always viewed suicide as a personal decision and probably something I'd do around age 75 rather than stay here and fall apart physically and mentally do to the aging process, but all of that changed for me when Robin Williams committed suicide I suddenly viewed suicide as literally QUITTING. The way I feel now there is no way I can QUIT, this life can get the best of me, I may even LOSE but one thing I will not do is QUIT.

Suicide is not a reset button...

I will live this life to it's natural completion...
Good, Bad, Or Ugly

If you can't live a bad life or a sad life with heart then you didn't deserve a good one...

 

[End Cruelty]

then i know you'll survive this neg, breh.

 

[MCMLXXIX]

Is this why you do the things you do? I don't want to come off harsh, but you do do some crazy stuff.

 

[Micky Mikey]

Why kill yourself when we live relatively short lives anyway. You ought to make the most of this experience. Live your life the way YOU want to. For all we know we only live once. Its amazing how people live there entire lives in accordance to the status quo. Live your life how you were born to live it ,free and independent. Take charge of your life because its the only thing YOU have and its short. Hope this helps.

 

[malbaker86]

 

[Brandeezy]

I don't want to kill myself but I walk by Hell's boundaries on a daily basis just so i can feel the pain

 

[SwagmundFreud]

If you can't live a bad life or a sad life with heart then you didn't deserve a good one...

 

[The Emperor]

Is this why you do the things you do? I don't want to come off harsh, but you do do some crazy stuff.

Yes I'm fairly certain of it...
I used to get bored and wild out when it comes to sex and women...
I have toned it down a lot this year...

You gotta factor in I don't smoke weed and I'm not a regular drinker...
I gotta have an outlet...

 

[The Emperor]

I don't want to kill myself but I walk by Hell's boundaries on a daily basis just so i can feel the pain

Half of beating depression is defeating negative thinking...
Your body responds to all that negative thinking...
I push myself outta bad or sad thoughts and don't allow myself to dwell on it...

 

[The Emperor]

Why kill yourself when we live relatively short lives anyway. You ought to make the most of this experience. Live your life the way YOU want to. For all we know we only live once. Its amazing how people live there entire lives in accordance to the status quo. Live your life how you were born to live it ,free and independent. Take charge of your life because its the only thing YOU have and its short. Hope this helps.

Agree whole heartedly...
I starting thinking this year this ride really ain't that long...
I gotta squeeze the good out of it...
Make some good if need be...
But the one thing I will not do is QUIT...

What kept me from doing it as a youth was the religious belief that you automatically go to hell for suicide...

I'm thankful for that old belief because I certainly would have committed suicide as young man....

Now that I'm less religious that's not my reason not to...
Is not fear...

It's now just on some quitting is for suckers type shyt...
I'ma take an L if need be...

If I go poor, homeless, blind, it don't matter...
I'ma accept my fate in life...

Literally Robin Williams made it clear for me...
I grew up watching Mork and Mindy reruns on Nick At Nite...
I thought dude was funny and creative but after he committed suicide all I can think of is what a SUCKER...

I don't remember any laughs...
I don't remember how funny he was all I can think of is how he ran away from life...

And I don't want to ever EVER be looked at in that way...
So I'ma ride this shyt out...
Good Bad or Ugly

 

[OPTiMO]

if you consider suicide you need to be put on meds, something aint right in your brain.

 

[The Emperor]

if you consider suicide you need to be put on meds, something aint right in your brain.

That's debatable...
I was on anti depression meds for 2 months this year...
It helped but then the meds started fukking with my body...
Then I had a decision to make...
Keep taking chemicals are really study my thoughts and find a solution...
I found that my biggest problem was thinking about what was bad, what was fukked up, what I wish hadn't happened repeatedly...

Once I stopped that I was half way home...
2nd half was reducing work stress...

 

[Just like bruddas]

 

[OPTiMO]

That's debatable...
I was on anti depression meds for 2 months this year...
It helped but then the meds started fukking with my body...
Then I had a decision to make...
Keep taking chemicals are really study my thoughts and find a solution...
I found that my biggest problem was thinking about what was bad, what was fukked up, what I wish hadn't happened repeatedly...

Once I stopped that I was half way home...
2nd half was reducing work stress...

clinical depression is no joke. peoples thoughts and perception get skewered. prrops to you for beating your demons.

 

[The Emperor]

if you consider suicide you need to be put on meds, something aint right in your brain.

I do agree but let me flip your question...
What was Wiz thinking marrying Amber Rose?
What was Tyga doing getting into a real relationship with Blacc Chyna?

It's something wrong with a lot of people bruh it's just how we deal with it and what decisions we will make...

Some dudes put tats on their face I think that's crazy but some people say that's gangsta...

Just saying they prolly need a med or a self analysis too...